i didnt run cross country.
yayyy :D
went to kfc for lunch, before proceeding back to school to watch our video.
managed to catch up with 15 minutes of nap.
went to tp to support our juniors, they won ngee ann!
i'm happy for them :D
training, then followed yanglin to her house to get my baggg :D
yayyy, thanks yang!

oh oh.
tmr's our match with ngee ann.
i wish my team best of luck, and hope that i can help the team to get some points?
i may be in just for a while. maybe, or maybe not.
hahaha.
sigh, but i really hope i can do something though.

at school, nothing really happened.
till i left my class for the game?
i went down, found shanice, and couldnt help stop crying.
i made her school uniform dam.
teammates ask, i said, long story.
shanice helped me to explain.

but i guess things were better when we reached tp.
back to my normal mood, and i did play :D
i want to show you that i've played.
watch it woman, watch it.

byeee, off for tuition :D

school's so boring.
but, im reluctant to leave school to watch the juniors' match today.
not that i dont want to support, im hardly motivated to study.
i've gone into the right mood, andddddd, we had to go off.
what a turn off. gah!
shouted like hell today. hahaha. i really did raise my voice today, you know.
ate lunch at tp, i know there's this girl, who kept staring.
so i stared back. hahahahahaha!
i've been staring at everyone these few days. just for fun though!

nevertheless, i made it back to school for extra lessons.
super restless!
everything ended at around 5, and then went for training.

went to collect my altered dress.
and oh, it's so mini now.
that lady, she went to cut an extra inch off.
ah well, i'll wear it for cnyyy :D
hehhehehe!

hello,
my physics is so screwed up. i dont know why. i studied, but i've been failing every physics test so far.
and worst of all, im always last.
sad huh.

but it came to me as a surprise that i've got a 21/30 for my english composition test.
i thought i'll end up in remedial or smt, since i got last in class for eng last year?
lol.
and hey, i was so happy okay! i wrote a whole chunk of crap, and i got 21 marks.
when i throw bombastic words and what i've learn into the composition, i cannot do well.
for whatever reasons.
next time i shall write crap :D

anyway, after school went to have my dress altered.
will collect my dress tmr. oohlala :D
went to the gym downstairs. rachelg ran like 5km?
i ran slightly less than 2km only, and i gave up, cos i was too lazy DDD:

and oh, those people who knows me well, i hate to eat rice.
hate rice x 7777
im an abnormal chinese. i hate using chopsticks.
im a total sucker at chinese culture, even though im a chinese. lol.
but i know chinese new year! hahahahahaa!

i went to text my dad when he was still working:
'I did well for my english composition test. reward is not to eat rice okay?'

so i skipped dinner. yay.
off to do my work, byeee!



church last sunday!



tights. zomg.

church was fun today
fun fun fun!
orientation with the new sec1s joining the youth.
and yup, we were separated into groups.
and i found out that Abel was HSC's vballer
hahahahhaa!
and ohhhh,
the games were fun, totally enjoyed them :D

after church, went to orchard to get that dress.
sorry jas!
lynn was with me till Aljunied. we were talking about my classmate
hahahaha
yeh, met my classmate in the train, so lynn and i was crapping around
hahahahaha
and since i was there, helped shanice to get something.

jas and i will have our clothes altered tmr!
rachelg and i will be hitting the gym tmr after school.
a swim would be great on a monday afternoon.
but uh, we'll see.

after training,
for once, i've decided to throw my books away, and decided to let down my hair
skipped tuition, and went towning with jasmin.
shopping was fun fun fun!
lunch at subway was full of crap. we were talking about our class and teachers :D
yup, i spent so much money today.
but ah, i still have alot of things in mind.
i'll get them tmr :D

Hai Sing's match was such a disappointment, didnt play.
but i made 2 friends!
hahahahaha
Regina and Sharon? yup!
Regina knows me cos of a friend.
hehhehehe.

ahh, and Natasha!
ah i saw that silly girl. hahahahaha!
andandand, all the old teammates, poking fun at me.
that was more like a reunion for us.
love it! :D

rushed home for tuition.
and freee now :D

i guess tmr will be fun.
not the training, oh pleaseee.
shopping! :D x 77777777777

O lvl results today!
some did exceptionally well, some did not.
yes, the intensity was there, even though i am not a candidate waiting for my results.
but i kinda know now :/
seems scary.
but oh, i seem to have to motivation to study now.
i dont want to land up in an undesirable state whereby everyone belittles me.
and that, my pride and dignity is goneeee >:(
y'all know how uhh, paranoid i can get at times. seriously way too much sometimes.
so yeah, im gonna bury my head into the books!
anddd, my class was supporting Adaleen all the way :D
next time must ask Adaleen to teach me chinese. She's got a distinction!

and yeah,
trainings are turn-offs nowadays.
i dont know why. beats me too.
hahahahaha.
dont know, for no rhyme or reason, i was fuming and staring throughout the training.

today after school,
rachelg and i went to get tops.
was trying out a top. got stuck and messed up, and that was rachelg's highlight of the day.
she cant stop laughing at me >:(
and in the end, we got a tube babydoll, each :D
yayyy :D

and uhhh,
went to starbucks after that. rested for awhile before she went for her tuition.
anddd i went for tuition at hougang too :D
and, back!

yay, im happyyyy :D
for no reasons.
hahhahaha

oh, HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY SZE ERN. I LOVE YOUUUU!
oh my, im so old already :/
soon it'd be my turn.

and yeah, school's boring >:(
sit on the chair from 7.45am till like almost 5pm?
apart from changing classes and standing up to greet teachers and all that.
so its like 10 hours of study >:(
all work and no play makes grace a dumb blonde.
hahahahaa
i guess in maybe 2 weeks, everybody will have pimples on their butt, cos of the super long hours we sit in school.
hahahahaha
was doing chem worksheets during the remedial, and i told jasmin i must spell 'burette' properly cos im a brunette and not a blonde.
lol.

my mood totally changed when i was having training.
changed for the worse. hahahaha.
just, turned-off :/

anywayyyyy, i cant wait to go shopping.
the thought of shopping makes me go gaga :O

:D

went to school and gah, boring! >:(
during chemistry, did SPA. tripod stand was heated with blue flame.
and i grabbed the tripod stand.
i burned my hand D:
hahahaha
but i dont want to make a fuss out of it, so i just kept quiet.
my hand is sooo pain now >:(

after sch, jasmin and i wanted to look for H2O for our physics spa.
but couldnt find her.
so jas and i went to tampines library and got some books.
anddd went to scout for sze ern's present :D

went to church with Arnold and Shanice.
waited for Arnold's mom before we proceeded to have lunch.
went to popular with Shanice to get some stationery.
and went home to sleeeeeeeeeep!

headed for tuition >:(
and yeah, there's no tuition on the 3rd Feb. so i wont feel bad skipping tuition and going to sentosa to play beach volleyball.
hahahaaaahha :D

dinner was steamboat :D

hello.
training was so slack today. i made my coach disappointed.
not smt to be proud of. hahahahha

anyway, venus and i were out to irrate the hell out of xinyu today
hahahaha
we kept singing to her until she was so scared
lol.
crappy session with venus today was fun. we talked about having our very own concert.
HAHAHAHAHAHA. GV is golden village, so is Grace and Venus :D


im so tired now D:
-yawns.


Look at me
You may think you see
who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must
be free to fly
That burns with a need
to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

hello!
yea im happy today.
apparently, i wasnt looking forward for today's match.
but, everything seems to change for the better. but gah, no hopes for me alr, i must say.
at least i got to serve and play back court, right?
all i can do now is to take a step at a time, yes?
i dont hope for much either. the higher i climb, the harder i fall.
i cant afford to let another misfortune happen to me. this is enough.
ah well, at least i aced a ball today. :D


i have learnt to be contented with what i have.
thank you classmates who are always there for me, and cheering me up :D
i posted this two months ago:

'

If insensitivity does not knock on me, I dont think I'll come this far.
was pondering, is it a blessing in disguise?
its is a good thing to find out that in such a crisis, I know there're true friends who are with me all the way?
I guess so.'


rushed home for tuition after watching video.
chinese tuition. sucked.
i was so sleepy D:

anyway, i received a text message frm mom yesterday.
i think she's cute at times.
im typing out, exactly what she texted me:


'Mummy loves grace grace. Be a good girl and study well ok? -smily with kiss'

hahahahahaha.
TGIF! i need a break.

-my heart is the size of my fist, but my emotions are as wide as the sky.

I AM SO SORRY TO THOSE WHO HAVE SEEN MY BLACK FACE.
I DONT MEAN IT. I HATE WHAT IM DOING TOO, BUT VOLLEYBALL MEANS ALOT TO ME.
AFTER ALL THESE 7 YEARS, I'VE CONCLUDED THAT VOLLEYBALL IS A SELFISH GAME.
when the ball drops between 2 person, they fight for the ball.
when everybody wants to play, only 6 people can.
when the team is in the midst of the tournament, hardly anyone gets sub in.
sighs.

so sorry to those who've seen my stinky face.
natasha im sorry i was so harsh on my words. i was so upset that time.
so sorry to those who've tried comforting me, but all i gave was some stupid attitude.
most of all, im sorry, shanice.
she's in the same boat as me. she feels just as sad.
but she comforted me.
she's willing to give up her place just for me.
thank you so much, girl.


anyway, today's trg sucked big time.
dont wanna say any further.

but anyway, school was great.
classmates are love.
sticky notes with encouraging words melt my heart, really.
thanks jasmin :D

gahhhh
i might as well just stay in class today.
you all should know what i mean lah huh.
TEARS WERE BRIMMING WHEN I WAS ON THE BENCH CAN?!
before i go on, i'd like to clarify that what i say is what i think of myself.
note, myself.
i have veryyyy high expectations of myself. i dont intend to sit on the bench big time.
it sucks.
i was damn pissed off and upset lah.
give me back my one hour of curriculum time please. i really want to study.
in future, if im not playing, please dont get me out of class.
hah.


better part was that i get to meet all the old chums, and iggy :D
hahahaha
at least they all made me feel much much betterrrr.
went to canteen to have lunch, then came back and rushed off for tuition.
shanice knocked sense into me.
in the bus, i met my pri sch coach.
was telling her that im the benchwarmer.
she made me feel ten thousand times better :D
hahahaha.

after tuition, met jovy and collected chocolate eclairs :D
hahahahaha
they're delicious(;




reality bites, right?

got out of school early for tournament.
didnt want to leave cos i reallyyyyyy want to study D:
during tournament, was hoping something would happened, but made me more pissed in the end,
hahhhahaha,
won junyuan sec.

after the match, we were watching other matches. sat down and my hair got stucked on the screw :O
hahahhhahaha.
went back, was hoping for extra lessons but ended alr >:(
no choice, went home in the end.
met bel and talked to her for a short while.

oh yes, yesterday was the first time i stepped out of class and went for recess.
im so proud of myself. i never liked to face the crowd.
hahahahahhaha.
my classmates keep calling me a blond >:(
i must be telling too many blond jokes.
lol.

OMGOSH WE'RE WEARING TIGHTS TMR.
hahahahaha

hello
went to church. accompanied Arnold to sunday school.
then shanice and i proceeded back to youth room.

napped and had tuition.

was having dinner, and after dinner,
i couldnt contain my excitement of having to join a beach vb tournament :D
howeverrrr, it falls on the 3rd of feb. i have physics tuition and reunion dinner.
so i was told off like @*$&{%&#
but who cares? its my passion!
im so looking forward to it. yup.

last trg before east zones.
as i said, i cant wait for nats to end, so it'd end my misery of having to see my position taken up.

i did nothing today, because i think i deserve a rest.
i've been mugging like shit, and i look like a living zombie.
hahaha.

todayyyyy, went to sch early
morning service, then school.
im so tired >:(
so hard to focus. im not looking to getting out of class early for tournaments.
for the first time, i reallyyyy want to study.
im serious.

after sch, accompanied rachelg for her math test.
then went to mac to get twister fries. ahahahaha.
then bought bbt. talked for awhile, then went home for tuition
my chinese tuition teacher says that my chinese is alright
she's teaching me higher chinese :O
hahahahha.
-yawns.
im very, very tired
i dont know if i should be looking forward to training tmr.
last training, finally?
im looking forward for the nats to end.
saves me sweat and tears, and the pain i feel, you all will never understand.

hello
i dont mean to shoot people in my blog. oh, but do i have a choice?
someone who tagged as 'YR PAPA', please get a life lah. this is such an coward-y act. who knows, you're just jealous im in the main 12. no in main 6, so what?
i have played for these 7 years, its exhausting.
i, myself, need a break too. i'll continue in tertiary education okay?
so grow up, sucker.
i know i should jolly well take note of what im writing, cos i know of a few teachers reading my blog.
but urgh, what's with this immature act? if that person is older than me, OMGOSH, i cant imagine.
and if that person is younger, you're just, abnormal.

and oh, concerning another case.
i know of people who are scared of me, because i blog.
and i know this person is one of them.
some people whose name starts with 'A'.
not Abrie. i love Abrie, she's my cheena tweet twin. so go figure lah huh
why do you have to talk bad about me? have i offended you, girl?
there're so many countless instances about you talking behind my back. i beared with it.
this is it. i have a limit.
watch out, kiddo.

i may seem like im clowning around everywhere.
but, when serious, i mean business.



anywayyyyyy, school was horrible today.
i really wanna sleepppppppp >:(

andand oh, after sch, we had trg.
peppered with tiffany. she's great :D
hahahahaha
i can say that this is one of the best trainings i had, ever since i was out of the main 6.
im so pissed, i started screaming in court. it works (;

Rachelg says she dare not go to facebook anymore, cos i keep poking her :O
hahahahahahahaha
anyway, helped in decorating the class today.
and im soooo tired D:
i've got so much homework to complete, including tuition ones.
sighs.

feeling so not well today >:(
went to church, venus brought her brother this time
hahahahaha
he's so cuteeeeeee. next time i wanna accompany him to sunday school.

went home to sleep.
then had physics tuition at kent ridge. i got lost while finding my way there, and i was aloneee >:(
i cant stop laughing what i heard during tuition.


boy: -talks about bring materialistic
teacher: will you stop being materialistic?
boy: you talk like a monk, quit talking like one please. monks nowadays talk about having simple life, but in the monarchy, there's plasma tv, xbox 360 and so on.
teacher: -laughs. i saw a monk playing psp.
boy: ohhh, he must be playing 'path of enlightenment'.



hahahahahahaha
hilarious, i must say.
weekends are gone in a flash. i dont look forward to school.
and that is because i dont get enough sleep D:
come tmr after school, i'll have chinese tuition.
worst of all, its 1 to 1. i cant fall asleep D:

I thought things were just as reassuring,
But seven years passion's tainting.
Everybody's asking: what do you play?
'Benchwarmer' is what i could say.
Who am i to say,
To say that without me is doomsday?


like i frigging give a damn now
i'll just take it as, if he puts me in, i'll play my best.
if im outside the court, i'll just hopelessly wait for a chance to play.

im intending to change to wordpress. so that i'll lock some of my post.
in that case, i'll have freedom of speech.
and no one bombards me for who i care.

but thank you, my good friend said this: make negative positive, and every obstacle an opportunity.

however, easier said than done(:

anyway, my dad just signed me up for another physics tuition
meaning i have 2 physics tuition at the moment.
sighs.
and my new physics tuition starts tmr >:(
someone, join physics at kent ridge please?

so tiring in school today! >:(
training was a disaster yesterday. so screwed up. hate it.
and today, had so much difficulty paying attention in class today. cos i was so tired.
my teachers are great :D

so tired >:(
gonna nap and start on revision!

BABY ELEANOR TOH, HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY! ♥

i didnt forget your birthday, girl :D
love you!
hahahaha

hahahaahahaha
i cant believe that im sec4 now, can you?
means, im turning 16 soon. so oldddd >:(
was feeling high in school today, crapping with classmates.
i love 4GGGGGGG ♥♥♥
hahaha :D

and i love telling blond jokes to jasmin!
but she calls me blondie in return >:(
hurrrr!

had training today,went back earlier.
went home, and realised that i was without my house key.
wanted to take bus, but the wait was too long, so was flagging cabs.
so i ran to school and my bro pass me his key, and i ran back home
hahahahaha
i think can run cross country already. so tired D:
made it there at 6pm, and they said it'll commence at 6.30pm
)*^}@$^*@)*%^#*%^#*

tuition teacher was so direct
asked us for our EOY results, everyone passed except me
she pointed at me and said: you die.
D:

hello
i wont be blogging often cos of school.
i dont know what will people say when i go back to school
will they say im taller? hahaha :D
and there's training tmr D:
sighs

i guess i have to leave early, cos i'll have Amath tuition at hougang at 5.30.
and i was supposed to have chinese tuition tmr, at 3.30 too.
sighs
cancelled my chinese tuition for this week :D
and worst of all, my physics tuition is on wednesday too.
die die die D:

Happy New Year y'all

no more 07/07/07