Sunday, January 15, 2012

January has been good thus far.

Look at how time flies - we're already in mid Jan. And in just a matter of another week, we welcome the CNY.
22 more school days & I'll be out of this hellhole. But I'll deffy miss the ones who stay true to me. Everyone's fretting about uni talks and such and it makes me really stressed too. Everyone's asking me what are my plans after polytechnic, uni plans, etc... I know my parents are anxious too but it's making me feel very, very stressed.

Nevertheless, I had a pretty pleasant week.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Happy 2012!!!

Here's to an awesome 2012, another year of joyful struggles and whatnot.

There's just this feeling of uncertainty. 29 more school days and I'll be done with my life in a polytechnic. Don't know how I should feel about this. Should I be glad and proud of myself that I have survived such a bitchy and a never-ending competitive environment, or should I be sad that I am growing up way too fast? Secondary school graduation is still fresh in my mind and it didn't seem like it was 3 years ago.

Nonetheless, I am glad that I have friends who stood by me through thick and thin. Having gone through these 3 years of tertiary education shows who my real friends are. It also shows the ugly side of people, really. People being fake (of which some really suck at acting fake), people bootlicking to someone of higher authority to curry favour and in return are biased towards them, which also means unfair treatment, etc. Only those in poly and have been through what I have been through will truly understand. Especially if your course is somewhat like project-based....
AND, I'm also really glad that through it all, I've got someone to catch me when I fall, advise me whenever possible and be my listening ear :')

2012 not only brings about polytechnic graduation but university admission. Marketing it is, but idek which unis I want to apply. Going abroad to study is also one of my options but come to think of it, I'll be alone in a foreign land....and I have to leave everything behind back in Singapore.... You know, how fragile life is, you never know what happens next. I want my loved ones by my side, always. Call me a loser for cocking up with excuses for being overly dependent, but I really cannot bear to leave anyone even if it's for a year. Life as it is, is fragile & unpredictable.

Lastly, 2012 also means that I will no longer be a teen. It scares me. To hit the big 2, brings about more responsibilities - adulthood, work, settling down..... I don't really want to think so much but that's what people in their 20s do, right? And they say, when one hits the big 2, time flies and before you know it, you'll be 30. It really, really scares me. So meanwhile, from now till the 7th of July, I'd really want and love to cherish my last days of being a teen. Thinking back, my teenage years were rather memorable and I'd really love to revive them again if possible. :(