I'm guessing it's just a matter of time. Somehow, I prefer it the way it is....

END OF SEMESTER 3.1!

Good riddance.

Would really say I had a tough time this semester. I had a tough time figuring out the types of friends I have, the new groupmates, struggling to meet deadlines after deadline with not only endless assignments, mini tests but also projects. Yep projects are the main culprit. I also had a tough time handling situations whereby tongues wag and rumours spread, tough time facing those that I do not want to face everyday. And most importantly, I had a tough time NOT being myself. I was never this quiet in class. Not that I didn't know or wasn't bold enough to break the ice but there's just this fear in me..... I'd rather have a nice close bunch of friends whom I already have and for that, I am grateful. I think that's just enough to make me contented.

.......but heck, liberation is here. Freedom never tasted this sweet. Probably so because I am so satisfied with the stuff of work I've done this semester? Not hoping for the worse, neither am I expecting for the best but I reckon I won't do as well as I did in Year 2.

It's been a long time & I hardly ever blog. Bet nobody reads this space already. I hardly even read my own blog already, what more others?

Now, let us all embrace this well deserved one-month break before internship starts. So proud of my self-secured place in Publicis. Probably one of the best in the world. Can't wait :)

Jesus, take the wheel

9 more days.....

So tired...

School holidays have come to an end and today is my first day at school as a Year 3 a.k.a Senior Year. But everything seems so fast........

The long break was rather well spent. Tons of shopping (online to be precise), gorging ourselves with xiao long baos, ice cream indulgence, gatherings, meetups and not to mention the search for my internship. Am very proud to say that I have self secured my internship at Publicis, which means I get to work with my cousin! \m/

Need I not say, everything is just awesomeeeeeeee :)

So....today is my first day at school and my lecture is from 4-6p.m.

Ok till then! :P

I almost forgot my blog existed!!!!

.....not until when I was looking through the pictures in Photobucket. Ha.

The holidays have been going on pretty well so far though my days were planned according to day by day basis or even impromptu meetups. 'Cept for driving lessons which I have to book in advance, duh~

Already into my third week of holidays and most of my days are spent babysitting Perry. Speaking of which, I wanted to find my camera for a trip out to Sentosa but it was damaged! Damnnn. Because of what you ask? My mom saw Perry dragging my bag out into the living room, then PERRY DUG MY BAG, TOOK OUT MY CAMERA AND SWUNG IT TO AND FRO, AGAIN AND AGAIN. By the time my mom stopped Perry, it was too late. RIP my dear camera :(

Thing is, I'm not at all mad. How can I EVER be mad at this cute little thing? Huh!!!

So the highlight of the week was spending time at Sentosa! Time really flies when I'm at Sentosa. This time with another bunch of awesome company I must say. The sunny weather too, couldn't get any better despite the weather forecast mentioned showers with thunder :)

Jessica accidentally spilled her drink onto the wedges so we had Alcoholic Wedges...

Oh btw, Happy Birthday Aetiiqcaz!!!! :)

Counting down to liberation.... 16 more hours!!!

Exactly a week ago, we the family brought Perry to Marina Bay Sands for a walk.

He was, and is still, a star ★

K honestly I've got nothing to update because I am going through the most mundane part of a polytechnic student's life. Mugging for the Final Paper. As far as I've recalled, I haven't been studying for any Final Papers since.....a year ago? I mean, aside from End Semester tests which only takes up a puny percentage of the overall grade. It's fifty freaking percent this time. And all I'm feeling so relaxed right now. I am a sucker. I have no discipline. I am a bad kid :(

Maybe the highlight of the week is that I have applied for my Provisional Driving License and started my first driving lesson. Yes, manual. The car stalled several times. Was taught to overtake trucks/vans/lorries. Accelerated too fast and braked too sudden, I could see the fear in my instructor's eyes. Poor guy.
Second highlight of the week was that I get to see my group mates, combined with two students from the other class, to present our project to the CEO, Directors, Marketing Manager and team of RISIS. Proud of everyone, proud of my project! And this is when I cannot help but to thank everyone in my group for today's achievement.


K that aside, gonna bury my head in that.....stack of notes!

Sometimes I tend to ask myself, are all these sacrifices worthwhile.....?

Goodbye school, Goodbye Year Two.

Honestly I have mixed feeling about this because I'm happy I went through all that shit and am still standing strong but it saddens me because I know I'm one step closer to the corporate world. I'd rather be a student all my life despite the never ending angsty rants I may spurt in a moment of crankiness caused by both mental, physical stress and the lack of sleep.

I also think I had the best classmates too because I never had once a class so rowdy (in a good/fun) way and studious. Best of both worlds, I say. We even spent Valentine's evening sitting for an end semester test and a briefing on Internet Marketing thereafter. :/

But all I can think now is nothing but to have fun because this (study) break is darn well deserved to each and every one of us. Two papers down already and one more to go two weeks later.

Today was the last day of school and I only went to school for a mere 10 minutes for my interview role-play. My day was pretty much simple, and was of much harmless fun. HK desserts + Taiwan snacks + beancurd and shopping with the Brisbane roomie a.k.a Joce.

Fun awaits me!!!

But this holiday won't be much of an all-play vacation because I've got so many things to do. I should really get a part time job this vacation so I can pay for my own driving lessons. I know I've been quite a burden to my parents so I guess it's time for someone who is turning 19 to get a job during the holidays! And honestly I don't know how it works because I have never worked before. Yes go ahead and laugh at me for being a good-for-nothing.... -.-

And it's high time for me to go find a company for my upcoming internship too.

K ciao shall get back to the damn Internet Marketing project.

The downside of being a marketer......

Never too late for this :)

Love of the family is life's greatest blessing.

LIBERATIONNNN.....

....at least for now!

I'm done with both of my end semester tests already and that leaves me feeling more relaxed. However we're all still busy with our new campaign for Internet Marketing. It's so complicated it's driving us crazy. Worst thing is that it's self directed learning and we're doing this all alone with our tutors baffled so we only have ourselves to depend on :"(

My Sunday was spent at Sentosa refereeing for Surf & Sweat and it's quite an eye opener really. I knew it was going to be hard and sure it was! It's my first time being a referee and I reckon I will not do this again.

Alright back to monitoring the stats. I'm starting to hate you, Google. Please be nice to my groupmates & I.

Sigh, hope I survive the last week of Year 2!!!

It's Sunday night and I'm really dreading tomorrow to come...

Day after day I lie awake feeling so unrefreshed despite the ample rest from the previous night and I really wonder why. This week, although a little more relaxed because all presentations are over (that is if I were to include tomorrow's Advertising & Promotion presentation), there is a lot of revision to catch up on because the upcoming A&P end semester test. Worst thing is that I don't even know if I have the time to revise because me being me, I chose hobby over studies. Sigh I really don't know what was I thinking. I know it's definitely a wrong choice to be a referee for some beach volleyball games this coming Sunday but I know this opportunity don't come often. Then again, it's always studies>hobby most of the time. Moreover my end semester test happens to be on the next day of my beach activity.

Now that I've chose to take this step, I hope I can manage my time well this week and I'm crossing my fingers I won't get roasted/burnt/whatever. And when Monday comes, I hope I'll have enough energy to last me through the entire day.

Pictures during CNY

and me looking so haggardy~

Now that Fats Woo mentioned, I realized that Perry's nose is heart shaped.

And anyway, today Perry just had a mini haircut so he's looking more cute than everrrrr. Do drop by soon to play with Perry!! ^^

Oh, and this was before his haircut

This came a little bitttt late but,

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!!!!!!

Uhm this was three weeks back eh

Yesterday was the 29th but this 29th was miserable. I couldn't even make it for the stayover cum movie marathon with the girls like how I would usually spend my other 29ths with them fooling around and catching up.

I haven't been meeting my clique since last month, and my other secondary school friends, I could hardly ever remember how are they like anymore because it's been ages since I met em.

Lately I do not even have the time for my friends because it's either I have been cooping myself at home, or in school drowning myself in stress on those never-ending projects. It's not like I'm overly stress but it's just the norm for everybody I guess. Everybody gets a little more stressed/tensed up during the submission period. I even hardly spend time with my parents anymore.

And, the most stressful period has yet to come. I'm dreading Monday because i)my first end-semester paper begins, ii)one of the proj submission is on the next day iii)the start of a new project/campaign.

Amidst the gloomy moments, I do constantly remind myself that the results will be rewarding.

I'm really hoping to spend some quality time with my friends after this semester, really....

The LORD is my Shepherd, I shall not want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters.

He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness For His name's sake.

Life hasn't been a bed of roses for the past few weeks as compare to the first few weeks of this semester. Or should I say, it was far worse than the previous semester? True that, we had more time to ourselves mainly because most of my group mates including myself, completed our third and last Cross Disciplinary Subject during the October Vacation, which left us more time to play.

But.... I think I took it for granted. Made use of every possible break to do the most unproductive stuff ever, weekends were a blast.... Reality only set upon me (or us) that deadlines were nearing and we start panicking. Met up with major hiccups/obstacles/conflicts along the way and such.

I thought everyone was in fault, and that includes me. Faults as in misunderstandings & miscommunication (please don't read too much into "faults") and we didn't clear the air...right?

And yup I think I myself read too much into the most intricate details.

Apart from that, like what others have said, I stress myself up too easily. Too Easily. Such that I got so upset and looked at the imperfections of others that I lost myself. I was on my way to school one morning and I thought to myself that I should have been thankful through it all. I should have been grateful for the people who have been around me. I should have a little trust and not take things in my own stride although sometimes I have no idea I was so cocky (it was definitely, unintentional) when it came to serious stuff. I should have been thankful for every individual. Only then did I realize I got the best people but I have yet to appreciate it.

I just thought I lost myself......and I'm sorry for that.

I'd be lying if I said that I'm having a time of my life right now.

That is if unless I were to say it in my most sarcastic tone, ever...

Sometimes I don't ever wanna grow up. Most of the time, that is. I don't actually know how will I be able to cope when I push myself to another high level of education each academic year, or when I go out and start working because life right now, is already as stressful as it is. Wouldn't say the stress level made me miserable or to lose my sanity but rather, really weary from the inside out. And upside down. Every morning, whether I get to sleep for 3 hours or 8 hours, I wake up feeling stoned and not refreshed like how I used to.

Projects, schoolwork and such have been taking a toll on me for the past few days. Am definitely doing my best in whatever I can already. So much so that I am even thinking what I should do for my internship.

Sigh I hope what lies ahead of me will be a field of fresh green pastures filled with pretty flowers at the side. Just lying on the ground watching the skies would make me a very contented girl. I just need resttttttttttt......

TGIF!!!!

I'd say first week of the third school term went pretty well because I did not stress myself up. It's a good and bad thing. Good cos I tend to stress myself and breaking away from stress just feels sooooo gooooood but bad cos it is obviously the wrong time to take a break cos the workload is starting the pile up.

Anyway, I am glad that I got to spend time with the people I treasure this past week. Spent time with my cousins from the housewarming party cum Junya's 2nd, to the shopping trips with the classmates and spending time with Mummy. And not to forget my Spasticsssss.

It'd be week two of the third term soon and I hope I'll start to pull my socks up already....!

Pics from the housewarming party/Junya's 2nd

I don't get how people to get to buy such big houses!!!! I really envy my cousin hahaha I wanna be a tai tai too. How would you feel to step into a house with a private pool with a sexy Porsche parked beside it, an interior design so modern with a life sized horse, bedroom probably the size of my entire living + dining room, and an attic so cosy to entertain guests. Even little Junya has his own toilet and build in bath tub. I liked that red spiral fireman staircase in the master bedroom which led to the attic too. I'd be happy just to dream about staying in such a house.

At least I am really contented with what I have now. Counting my blessings cause I am living in comfort too :)

This, is little Jason

My cousin is already so tall but yet the horse is so.... I am only at the horse's chin

Junya's birthday theme this year

His very pretty cake

With matching plates

Happy birthday Junya!!!!

Daddy and Mummy

Happy New Year y'all!!!!!

Spent NYE at Marina Bay Sands cos my relatives got a room, and saw the psychedelic display of fireworks which was so, so pretty.

And on New Year's Day, I spent my time being sick :"( Worse part is, I am not the only sick being in the house. Mom too, is sick. And so is my dear Perry.

NYE

And I think my family spoils the lil rascal till no end, so much that i) dad & bro haven't been sleeping in their rooms for nights cos they want to sleep with Perry, ii) my mom insists that he must be covered in a blanket (she bought a new face towel for him), iii) my parents sing him lullabies and iv) they cannot bear to punish him so I'm the bad guy by beating and scolding him

Perry sleeping with his bff