I have not been to this space for a while ever since my laptop crashed more than a week ago. And I have no idea what is actually happening. Now using a laggy old desktop as ancient as greek, I decide to make this very clear. Now that I don't even get to see my own blog, let alone my tagboard, and for the sake of my concerned friends who actually ask me if I am alright (which I really have no idea what's happening), I have decided to remove my tagboard for the time being till the day I get back my laptop which will be in 3 weeks' time. 3 weeks time, I'll be back @ blogger.com! Not gonna depend on other laptop/desktop to blog simply cuz I don't wanna be too dependent especially the next few weeks are gonna be heavy duty weeks preparing for the main examinations!

It is obvious that people still don't actually get my point that this involves 3 people right from the start.
Well if you don't get it, I feel you. I really do.

Now all that has been said, has been said. Meanwhile I'll be using my iTouch to update my livejournal. Yes on a daily basis. Still very much unfamiliar with the new application I just downloaded from iTunes so I'm gonna have to play around with it for the next 3 weeks or so! So catch me at my livejournal! And those of you who knows my livejournal, lucky ducky, you!

So....Till then! ;)
3 weeks' time.
3 is jinxed.

So I guess there is something stirring at my tagboard.

I really, have no intentions of badmouthing TPVB. As a spectator I stand on neutral ground and I did not curse/swear for the team to lose. I mean, if you win, congrats and if you lose, I'm not saying anything. Same goes to the other teams as well. I really heard about the postpone of the match and if I got it wrong, my bad.

But trust me, I'm not feeling sour because I'm not in it or neither am I doing so because I dislike the team. I am totally, perfectly fine with the team in any case. I am on neutral ground, I really am. I quit, not because of the people, BUT because of the past. What has so and so done to me. I know tertiary's vb team will definitely be of higher standard. But why, in the first place, was I even asked to apply and only to reject just because I only play a certain position? Then why not I just go and play in A div, which would PROBABLY be less challenging than tertiary's? Even if I were to go back there now, can the so and so rewind back to Jan 2009 and let me study in a JC?

I hope this little explanation would give you some idea why I quit. And I would like to focus on my studies too.

I really hope the team will understand that I do not have any intentions of badmouthing the team. And I know this is a public domain and I should watch my words. And in any case, to keep it to myself, right?

In any case if I did say anything unbiased or bad towards the team, I apologize.

K I think I don't really have a say about the whole IVP thing but the organiser sucks. LIKE REALLY! Postpone match cos players cannot make it still nevermind but they don't even bother informing the other teams that the match is actually postponed until at the very last minute. Today's 3rd/4th placing was at 8.15 but it got pushed forward till 6.45 and the worse part is the players are not even here yet!

Everybody sigh...

Anyway people could tell that today my mood was picking up for the better. No harm feeling chirpier to make my day better, right! But it all died down after a while because I'm still sick and my energy is easily drained so yup I didn't get to watch the match today.
I'm feeling like this right now. I feel like I can spit out shots of non-stop fiery comments to the organisers right now.

Haha before I go for my afternoon nap I really wanna say I ended school today on a good note. Reason being I bumped into my first secondary school friend I made in secondary 1 (love you Aisyah!), walked to 293's bus stop with Fiona updating her about my stuff (the girls gotta know this!), talked to coach, bumped into neighbour in the bus and had a nice chat. I learnt that Integrated Programme isn't really attractive after all.

I'm slightly relieved to know that OB project is finally over. Filming and presentation was a success!

Now I need a nap. Totally need one or else I can't revise in the evening. I feel sick again :(

Today, well technically yesterdaaay..... everything was awesome until I sat for my accounting paper from 7 to 8 in the evening. Everyone else was complaining how blardy tough the paper was but nevertheless! All's over and done! (So much for revision, really)

Today I went to meet my new friend and I made another new friend who already knows my friends. The world very small lor and then when I told my friend how much I'm looking forward to learn how to drive, the person's jaw dropped and he went 'You're not even 18?!'

I think 18 is old :( The thrill of turining 18 is only being able to do thing legally but apart from that, there isn't anything to look forward to :(

I saw too many familiar faces. Too many. But I spotted the referee chairman who was there to referee and I think I got a higher chance of doing scoring for the YOG!! Omg can't wait! :D Can't wait to see my gay thai boy Anawat play! That is if he's still 18 and under hahaha.

I should have know what I was saying.

Now my brother is flying to Australia ALONE for a holiday and to visit my cousins and aunt. My mom kept asking 'Your spore cousins are not going to Australia, so do you still wanna go?' I kept saying no I'm not going anymore. Little did I know that it's my cousin's little autumn break in the beginning of March and they promised to bring my brother out to have some fun. Wtheck??! I wanna go too. I wish I can book an air ticket and fry to Australia in March.

Hong Kong? Maybe I'm going with Mom this March too.... Omg but Australia.... Cheap Havaianas and beach wear...

Out of the 24 hours today, I reckon I am gonna in bed for 21 hours, since it's not the end of the day yet! I feel so sick right now. I really thought my fever subsided before I slept last night but the next thing I got up I took my temperature, it shot up to 39.3 degrees. Then it kept increasing till nearly 40 degrees. You know that sucks! I haven't been eating well for the past few days cuz I felt like throwing up so I depended mostly on gruel. Today was no exception, but I forced myself to eat cuz I really needed to!

Mom and Dad refused to let me get out of my bed except when I went to take a shower. They fed me, sponged me, looked after me. When they left, Venus came over to do our Public Speaking quiz, which wasn't efficient at all cuz my head hurts so much I couldn't concentrate. So Venus had to leave without a choice cuz I felt so horrible :(

I'm the coordinator for my batch for the SHSS alumni get together for the past week and today, I can't make it. That sucks too :'( Being the one taking up so much effort trying to get responses from each and everyone of them, I didn't turn up in the end.

Well, Thank God I didn't have to be admitted to the hospital cuz I am so afraid of jabs. The thought of the needle having to pierce through my flesh really make my eyes water. Should I be going to the hospital/clinic AGAIN tomorrow, and if I were to get a jab, I'll ask them to knock me out with anesthetic first before doing anything that hurts me!

Sick omg I'm damn sick!! 38.4 degrees, more coughing, sore throat worsens, sneezing, aches, and feeling so ever faint. Thank God the doctor didn't give me any jabs and the tablets are small. Groupmates came over to do filming and after the first scene was taken with several rehearsals and NGs, we were over and done with just the first scene. Couldn't last any longer so I had to go back in the midst of shooting the second scene. So sorry groupmates!!

And seriously, I was quite certain I was about to give you up. Why did you have you appear again.

When the sick meets the sick, we get more sick (not in the mind!)! Yup that's Jasmin and I, but we couldn't really care less about her flu bug and my nauseous, coughing and sore throat state. Right after school today I was fantasizing about having Subway for lunch though I felt like throwing up but everyone wanted lunch in school so I went home to sleep for about an hour? Jas called me when I was sleeping and she wanted Subway too! Flew right over there to eat!

It was like a super impromptu decision to meet up, and watching Sherlock Holmes at GV was an even more impromptu one because we had nowhere else to walk. Apart from that we went around buying mini stuff like earrings, nail polishes.... Omg I can't feel any happier! Thank you Jas for the awesome evening and let's all meet up soon with Jol and co!

I feel slightly relieved right now cuz two of my projects are completed and tomorrow's the project submission. Stats tutorial done. Three more projects, a month and a half more to the end of Year 1! Holaaa~

Happy day! Yes today is a happy day worth living for! Could have been better if I had more sleep and stop wanting to puke all the time...! Today's somewhat like a mini reunion for me and my friends but we're in small groups. Public Speaking. Awesome! specially when I have one psychotic loving classmate whose name is Amelia....!! Hehehehe

And on top of that, if you were wondering what the hell was that reunion all about, I kept bumping into old friends today. ALL MY VB KAKIS even my primary school juniors, teammates and the ones at the beach. Bumping into the first two groups of people were unplanned except for the third! Tutorial had to be a time for project consultation so we were all dismissed after half an hour! Found my friend and talked about everything under the sun. Made us all so excited! Can't wait for the 7th!

GUESS WHAT.

I'm starting to love Business Statistics. Even if it bores me. Even if the lecturer pissed everyone by saying "This is a free world~~~you can get out if you wanna." No shit I'm not lying, I mean it!! I learn to appreciate that module even more when my friend told me his core subject in uni is stats, and he had to memorize every single formula. You wouldn't wanna touch stats anymore if you had to just memorize all the formulae you could find in the book!

I'm relieved. Relieved that my brother did considerably well for his O levels. Though he did not study much (I sunpa he was dota-ing 24/7 and late nights out till wee hours in the morning), he beat me hands down. Hands. Down. Think he could have done better if he studied! But nevertheless I'm quite proud of him!

School....is such a bore, really. Apart from that I was anxiously waiting and waiting while doing my Public Speaking project with Amelia (we must take pictures!!) after school at 6 then I went off disappointed at 8 BUT Deanna made my evening better by accompanying me to watch a match but the sports hall was too packed, especially the guy's court. And I don't wanna see people I don't wish to see. So then! Macs for dinner. I've been wanting to throw up for the whole of today but thank God I managed to eat some food for dinner.

I feel so exhausted now and I wanna watch tomorrow's match too...

To those who will be collecting their GCE O level results in about 11 hours' time... This post was written last year while waiting to go to school for my results! I wish everyone all the best, especially to Ken and my cousin Ghee!

"It's 10 minutes past 11 in the morning and every second counts. Anxious hearts minds and souls start texting each other for the best. Yeah it is a big thing. It's like once you get your results it'd be the end of carefree days so we go around hunting for schools and making enquries as a new chapter of our lives unfolds for the better unlike going out or shaking our legs at home thinking what's next. In other words this is a big thing because it paves our future where some of us reach our goals, change our path or even a nasty U turn. As grave as it seems to be..we have to accept the fact that in less than an hour we'll be out there having our lunch with friends, time flies and it'd be 2pm. Nobody's really looking forward to this it's like we have to mug all over again and it's taxing. Fast paced stressful lives meeting deadlines for projects and good grades for tests.

Is no easy feat.

After I took some time to reflect when I woke up, I realize that I don't have a reason to worry because the results are fixed. Like you'll get better grades if you worry any further. God has plans for me already and my life is worthless without God so He'll take the wheel and lead me to the righteous right path or whatever He thinks it's best for me.

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'ma let it go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

So to all O level students, I am just as anxious as you are. I wish you all the bestest best and may you enjoy sweet success like never before."

This weekend was well spent sleeping my assssss off. Though it may sound way too unproductive, sleeping makes me way livelier and haaaappy. A happy Grace = less bitching and less bitchy stares. I really don't understand why everyone says I look like one ultimate b!tch when I stone....

Whatever happened to all my weekend study plans! I'm feeling so so guilty now because I've been wanting to read up on my accounting theory. Sucks balls seriously, accounting should NOT and should never ever be tested on theory because the whole chunk of formats are already killing me though I have an accounting background back in secondary school.

Today was church, G2000 for formal wear (sucks I tell you, they don't have my size so I had to settle for a bigger skirt), catnap and puppy hunting! I really hope Dad brings us to the pet farm for a reason...because looking at puppies could just kill me because I feel so helpless. Can't bring my Westie home :'( I asked Dad to get the pup first and I promised him I'll give him every single cent I get from the red packets during next month's CNY but.....

Omgz today I got up at 7.30 and wanted to leave home for the 9am lecture at 8.30 but I was so tired I decided to sleep. Tutorial started at 11 and to my horror, I woke up at 11! Darn crazy I tell you! Thank God I live near school and I managed to reach at 11.15!

Got back Stats results and I'm not satisfied at all because of all the uncalled for careless mistakes! Mistakes like....pressing the figures wrongly on the calculator (-.-), forgetting to write units, wrote 4 decimal place instead of 3 and omg the list could just go on.

Was supposed to study with Jas today but it was cancelled in the end so Kerensa and I headed to Ehub's fish & co express, bumped into people I always see @ the beach, popped by K's new house and met her parents... Love her new home! Did I mention I'm still very much in love with Prissy's cosy home too? Love the bar at the corner of the living room!

Today..... I happened to wear the same outfit as Mel!! Such a coincidence hor!! Almost wanted to wear my black skirt too but I was late and settled for this one. We didn't plan this okay!

And some pictures from last night's BBQ!!

Definitely a crazy idea to blog at an unearthly hour knowing that I have to be up by 7.30 in the morning later. Survived with 3 hours of sleep the previous night, and had quite a day. Pretty tiring! Decided that I should just go for the class gathering because Nat and Pris encouraged me to go. K fine apart from catching up with the rest, I found myself stoning so I decided to go barbecue some food for the rest. Didn't eat much for a barbecue gathering unless half a sausage, one satay and one chicken wing is a lot to you!

K am gonna continue with my Stats homework now and then I'm gonna turn in. Sugar dreamsssssssss!!!!

Today was great!! Really!

School was as usual and it kinda sucked a little because I kept seeing doubles...which isn't very good for me because I get groggy :(

Rushed home to take a 20 minutes nap and left for Simpang to meet mah homies Jolene Pris Nat Fik Fahmi Moses Knp Jiajun Jovy Alfi. Happy 18th Fahmi! We all had a mini gathering and headed to Ice Cream Chefs after that! Yum!

My evening couldn't be any better!

Pris and I are really crazy right now. We have our own fan clubs on facebook!

Shall not blog any further because it's 2 in the morning and I have yet to do my accounting tutorial! Cya honeypies.

Love me or hate me is still an obsession. Love me or hate me, THAT, is the question. If you love me then, Thank You. If you hate me then.......(Sure you want me to type that out? Or else I'll be breaking my new year's resolution again lol)

Yup I think I already broke one of my new year resolutions. No prize for guessing what new year's resolution I broke but when one hits the roof, everything just comes out naturally. Thank God for a good bunch of classmates. LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! Like I can get darn peeved late in the middle of the night and then 10 minutes later I kept laughing at the screen. I figured out that I shouldn't be peeved at people who makes like difficult for me anymore. So much for all that big talk and nothing is done in the end until one really pushes someone only then he or she is willing to work reluctantly with a stinky attitude. Anyway I reckon I'm gonna have to break that only new year's resolution again and again until project deadline is due. But I don't want to. I figured I should not get angry with people who do not appreciate my efforts to step up as a leader although I am not someone with authority to give instructions. Because there isn't a leader to begin with? Now I'm just utterly disappointed.

Tomorrow I can take a break from all that pretty screwed up projects. Maybe it isn't the project afterall. Tomorrow I'll see myself sitting through 4 hours of tutorials and 2 hours of lecture and then off to meet mah homies for dinner at Simpang! How nize... just to have a little more laughter to see people that makes me happy to see my buds doing great.

K it's back to making love. With the books. Today is the last day of Christmas and I shall not get peeved with the slighest stuff. Probably it's just gonna be the time of the month and I am sick! Merry12th day of Christmas all!! Can't wait for next Christmas!

O.M.G I am damn annoyed. I am annoyed BECAUSE the whole world is asking why am I not playing volleyball anymore. I kinda expected people to ask me when IVP starts. I thought my fellow volleyball friends from unis polys jc and ite would stop asking me after I told them BUT NO. Everyone else is asking me the same thing and for Christ's sake I'm damn tired of repeating myself okay I have my reasons I really do. The moment I type everything out here I bet TP is gonna sue me or something but I'm damn pissed with TP FULLSTOP NOTHING ELSE THAT YOU GOTTA KNOW. Even my previous 2 coaches also told me to stop and only continue playing when I'm in the University.

My back. People always ask why I stopped playing but in fact I have never stopped playing volleyball. When asked why I stopped playing I would say my back isn't treating me too well and physiotherapy don't work. This is only a small part why I "stopped" playing volleyball, hardcore. If I really love playing volleyball, nothing will stop me and I haven't stopped playing. But deep within it isn't really the case although my back is really giving me hell lots of problem.

And IF you must know I'm really considering joining a volleyball team outside ok. Yah I was approached by someone in school today not really in school but idk how the heck the person contacted me during accounting lecture. But then again I really have to consider like really really thoroughly because I myself don't have time to go out with friends sometimes or even spend some time alone. Sometimes me-time is really important for me to reflect and change for the better and I don't even have that little bit of me-time for myself, let alone some outside volleyball team whereby I have to train my Wednesdays and Fridays evening at Houngang Sports Hall.

Here I am sick. Coughing out phlegm so thick which disgust me so much, my head spinning so badly and my empty stomach refuse to accept any form of food. I feel so terrible right now and I don't have a bloody choice but to do my work until some few others came asking me the same old thing... And then the next thing I know I kinda exploded? And I found myself here typing all these.

I really wanna go watch the match at the sports hall to support my friends but I refuse to see that certain someone. Make it two. Or maybe three. Or make it..... K I don't wanna say it here. This evening I'm with team SIM. NUS on Wednesday.

I'm so angry I can't go back to do my work.

Today couldn't be any better!! I realise my mood is pretty on and off like say yesterday I was fuming then today I'm feeling all ice cream and sunshine...! I thought I'd be quite grumpy today because I thought I didn't have enough sleep to pull me through the day but I wasn't, although I was damn tired and I slept whenever possible. Even during the sermon, in the car, at the party (if you count sleeping with my eyes open lol) yah I think EVERYWHERE.

After church, my family and I went to Vivo to pick up something then to Dempsey Hill for Junya's early first birthday celebration! He's as cute as usual clad in jeans and a short sleeve collar top like what a man would wear to work but he changed out after that :(

Lunch was great. Ambience was awesome. I saw a Caucasian couple who also attended the party and I thought the guy resembled a little bit of Brad Pitt and the lady, Leighton Meester!! A lot of people were invited. They were not only us but also relatives from my uncle's side which makes him a proud granduncle! And also the maternal and paternal sides of cousin in law. Granny was all smiles today because she is so happy her great grand son turns one...

Enough said! I'll show you pictures of the little star's party today! More pictures up on facebook and the video too is uploaded on facebook!

Birthday cake!

Spotted: A pregnant cousin

"HUH?! You mean it's my party?!?!"

"My party's over and now it's time to go home with my new car!"

Pretty mommy feeding handsome baby

"Wait, stop, you're speeding! I wanna give you a summon."