Today, or rather yesterday was pretty well spent! Cept that I got a lil depressed during the game because i) it’s my last and ii) everytime I go in and serve, I serve right into the net. :(

Though we lost to the Youth Development Team which is also the Youth Olympic Team, we weren’t really saaaad. Today we fought against the YDT for the 9th/ 10th position. Think alumni team didn’t really do well today but from what I heard from my senior (we were discussing on this issue when we bumped into each other in the bus) we got 4th for the Open Cup last year. What she said was, we didn’t have enough training and we weren’t serious enough. Am thankful I reminded myself to bring my back brace!! :)

Met spaz for dinner back @ Tampines and then we went to the rooftop of T1 and revealed our angels & mortals and of course, gifts!! :D Caught up, caught up, told them the reason why I’m not going to Hong Kong anymore. Am veryyy thankful for good friends like these. Grace talked to me and I felt much better but fyi I wasn’t upset just because I’m not going to HK anymore. Go figure k!
Past 10 already and we were still talking so we settled at Central Park and talked. Didn’t really bother to notice the time but when I reached home it was already midnight...
Some pics but sadly the group pics are not with me.

Rey so cuteee!

My Mortal :)

Everybody sigh....!

I want to give my best give my best give my best. Who knows this could be my last ever match? So troubled I can't fall asleep.

Would prolly sleep in till noon then head to Hougang. Then I'm gonna meet my girls after that. Don't really want this to end :'(

I didn’t know that I could make fonts biggerrrrrr. Blogger has been a bitch so far and it’s still acting up once in a while. Can’t really adjust the text size you know... One evening I was so bored and tried to make my fonts bigger so I went to Microsoft Words and typed it out and pasted it here. And yay it worked!
Didn’t go Expo after meeting Deanna and Fiona cuz I was too lazy to go already since my body was already aching like mad. But I had an awesome time with both of them and it’s been pretty long since I spent time with them. Think the last time was before poly started. Ummhmm I got pretty random stuff today! I didn’t intend to shop k. I went out for a reason and that is to get gifts for my mortal. But in the end I got some stuff for myself too and it’s all accessoriesssss! Oh yes today I saw havis @ ION and omg finally they are selling baby havis! Have been wishing that they’d sell baby havis since 2007! Too cute to be true but I am going to get them for my kids next time. Since the havis are too small for me, I’d be contented enough by just looking at it :D
K mom and I have come to a decision and that is we shall give HK trip a miss because of.....some personal reasons. Don’t want to go with a heavy heart and waste $$ since we don’t have the mood to do so. My mom and I didn’t have a catfight la ok and neither did we quarrel or whatever you think it is.
Check out the havis and there are cuter designs @ ION!

Welllllllllllll. It’s half past 2 in the morning already and I don’t really wanna screw up my biological clock because my skin is not in a very good condition and I need to set a proper time to sleep well! Hate junk sleep and waking up in the middle of the night because of nightmares.

I have a long, interesting day later in the morning and I might have to head down to Expo for the Natas Fair. Gotta book the airtix asap!

Sugar dreams all!! :)

Last night I slept at 5 a.m. because I was too engrossed in bloghopping. And then I got a little bored and went to blogger's dashboard to check out my friend's latest blog updates. Blah not really friends. More of...those people whom I always bump into like say those volleyball tournament venues, beaches, well you name it. I do admit I am scary and I do stalk people but not guys but that does not mean I stalk girls and I am a lesbo.

Lo and behold this girl (can't really call her a girl cuz she's a few years older than me) posted something at some unearthly hour. Ditto man I think she can be another bff of mine. Well...she has something to do with St Hilda's in the past but not anymoreeee. I don't talk to her. She hasn't talked to me. I wanna make friends with her but she seems so scary just like how people also say that I look scary too! And then when I read her post I totally went 'OMG YESSSSS it's like we're in the same boat' but what's different is that she will not give up on vb. Well as much as I do not want to give up, I am forced to....

I had fun at today's alumni gathering. Nice to see people whom I have been talking to during the past few months =D But every little action I did hurt so much I started to shout 'AHHHH' once I hit or serve the ball. Not a very good sign. Could do that without much pain just two weeks ago you know :( What has become of me!! Oh yah I must give my best for my last match on Saturday. Then I have to stop already. Prolly until next year or end of this year before tourny starts again but for now I really want to rest. Painful decision, that I know. I don't have a choice do I? Tell me do I?

Okay la but on a lighter note I really want to thank God for my friends. Venus was supposed to come to my place at 11 but she called me at 10 when I was still in bed and asked if she should leave her place first.. She brought HK serial shows and for the first time I got hooked over shows. Omg am I just deprived or deprived of TV shows like this?

And yah I think most guys are becoming less gentlemen. Like not even a gentlemen at all. Today after buying chicken mushroom puff I accompanied Venus to T1 to get Subway cookies AND I HAD TO FREAKING GIVE WAY TO THE ARMY KIDS. Oi I too small cannot see is it? They are like big and tall and all buffed up but... what a disgrace to guys, right?! Chickens!

And one last thing. I know this post is pretty long but I think I have irritated some of my friends more than enough and I've been asking them if I should have short hair. If you know me well enough I do treasure my hair a lot and I do not want to snip it off and regret it for the next one whole year!! Have been considering this about a month or so already...

Ignore the fringe! How?!

Well hello Hong Kong?

Might not be a very good time to plan a holiday now but my mummy wants to bring me to Hong Kong to shop. Reason being is because my family will be going for a holiday during the year end and it'd be Home Alone II for me. Can't remember when was the last time my parents went for a holiday and my brother and I had to stay because we had school. Oh well I cannot join my family for a holiday because I have school...Just wait till my brother enters tertiary education and all 4 can go for a nize family holiday!

I'll be planning this holiday. The first shop I wanna enter in HK is H&M!! Last year I couldn't shop properly @ H&M because my dad and brother couldn't stand me shopping :( I tried googling H&M's store locater in HK and found an interesting article:

(Go enlarge the text and read it!)

H&M may open in Singapore

Industry players say the apparel giant famous for its fashion-forward clothing at affordable prices is in talks with the new mall in Orchard Turn to open an outlet there.

The mall at the junction of Orchard and Paterson roads is set to open late next year. It is tentatively named Orchard Turn because of its address, 2 Orchard Turn. Its official name will be revealed later this month. (It is actually ION la)

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But the word on the street is that H&M might be entering the retail scene here on its own, having turned down previous franchise requests from Singapore retailers.

An industry insider says some brands prefer to enter a market through a local franchise partner because of the latter's knowledge of the market and experience in real estate and logistics.

But the market in Singapore is relatively small, so international brands may decide to focus their efforts on larger markets, leaving operations to a local franchisee instead.

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Helen Khoo, executive director of Wing Tai Retail which owns franchise rights to Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Karen Millen and Fox, says: "H&M's entry validates Wing Tai's confidence in the Singapore marketplace as an important and internationally vibrant fashion retail destination."

All's not confirmed all's not confirmed. Air fares + accommodation not very cheap and could prolly fly us to other continents lor. I feel bad to have mom to accompany me because I really want her to relax during her few days leave from work... Athough I really wanna go overseas but I really do feel bad about this but I told her I'm fine with not going. Think mom knows I'm a little upset because some of my friends are going overseas to shop. What's more I cann't join my family this coming holiday trip during my mid sem break because I reckon that my mid sem break will be filled with projects like the previous one. But anyway they'll be going even before my break.

Oh yes I baked brownies with The Bimbo today! Wanted to catch the Hangover at the cinemas but it seemed like it isn't showing anymore then we decided to go rollerblading/cycling but it looked like it was going to rain so it was quite an impromptu decision to come out with the idea of baking brownies while we were having lunch. Quite fun and very, very successful. My family likes it and I think hers too!

Awesomeeeeee today was awesome!! Now Semester 1 can kiss my ass.... Semester 1's pretty short isn't it? It's only 3.5 months hehehehe.

The end of Semester 1 means that I am left with another semester with my classmates before we part. Good and bad tho but the thought of me being in a new environment and making new friends sucks. Am nothing of the anti-social sort but it's just my face.... For the first time in my life Wenxin my first Poly friend thought I was 'sweet' and 'demure when she first saw me but others thought otherwise. Too early to worry now but I think I should divert my worries to Semester 2 first.

BA went pretty well for me. Completed the paper in an hour instead of two cuz the questions given were quite similar to the ones I learnt in secondary school so yay! But I suck at theory. Have been failing the theory papers since secondary 3!

Lunchy with classmates and caught The Proposal and I think everyone should go watch that show! Pretty interesting movie that made me go 'What a biatch @$*^#*' and awwwwww at the same time.

Check out the pair of earrings I've bought!

Byeeee POM!!!

Another load off my burden so 2 down and am left with 1 more paper. Business Accounting you better not let me down!! I think I let down my POA teacher back in secondary school because I'm doing fairly well only. Not very well because of some screwed up careless mistakes I have made in the past two papers. So annoying! BA better get me a Z or else an A. Will settle nothing less than an A!

So now I thought I kinda screwed up my 14 marks POM question but the others I think I did quite okay. Am a little scared about the results and I hope this whole paper will maintain my B grade or if best B+.

Accompanied The Bimbo, got bbt and took a bus back then there was this girl in the bus who kept looking at me when she boarded. So I glared back. Unintentionally. The bus was quite empty and she looked like she was contemplating if she should sit with me then she just sat beside me in the end. She said 'Hi!'.

I was taken aback. Why the hell would a stranger said 'Hi!' to me? Took me quite a while and then I went 'OMGZ IT'S YOU ANGIE!!!!' That's my primary school teammate hehe. Big eyes dark french brown long hair with nice big curls, fair skin and tall. She looked more like a Caucasian to me now...

So morale of the story: Say hi to me when you see me because I am really quite oblivious to my surroundings and I do not recognize people on the streets or in buses trains (you name it) although I give the kiam-pa face. But I really do not mean it... :(

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Okay by 3 p.m. I should be isolating myself in the reading room and revise BA hardcore.

Am feeling the Premature Monday Blues already especially this week. A little contradicting though. One moment I go 'It's Monday again. Oh man here comes the exams...' but on the other hand I go 'Oh hey I'm left with 2 papers. 2 more days to the Day of Liberty!!!'

Think this holiday I'd be feeling quite lost. I reallllly wanna go out for an overseas holiday trip with my friendsssss but I think it's too late to plan. I want a holiday job to get me some money because I jolly well know that my spendings would be way higher than it is. It's THE Holidays whatdya expect!

This holidays I want to date all my spastics, Gladys, Venus, Jasmin, Jolene, Fatz, Ghee, and perhaps some of my classmates and am really hopeful to go to the beach. Haven't been there for quite a while already since...First of August but that one not counted! I want to play the real stuff but my bunch of friends are freshmen at their universities and they just started school not long ago like say two weeks ago? Oh yes I have to settle an appointment with the chiropractor and get a proper X ray and then a fresh start to physiotherapy. I know...I procrastinate a lot. I have wanting to do this since monthssss ago.

Oh shuckies I hardly see a dress that catches my attention but WHY OF ALL TIMES OUT OF STOCK NOW?! :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONAAAAA!!!


Thank you so much for being such an awesome friend and trying to think of means and ways to make this clique as close as everrr! Thank you for being there to comfort me, to lend me a listening ear, to advice me what's best and what's not, to knock sense into me, to tell me that I am a bimbo so that I can try harder not to be one, to be always there scolding us when we did wrong because we know that you care!

I feel very, very blessed to have close friends like this






because I know when I have problems or when I am feeling low, I know that I will always have these girls to be there for me. All the time ;)
Awesome isn't it!!!

Last night I had a terrible nightmare. Got me breaking out in cold sweat despite the air conditioner being switched on. :( Kept tossing in bed and couldn't sleep till much later which made me felt like a zombie the whole morning. Am going to reveal a small portion of my nightmare. Last night I dreamt that I was playing with a bunch of friends and soon after we found ourselves in the jungle. In the midst of the jungle whereby you can smell the dampness of the air surrounding you. Emergent and canopies with lianas and twines grew so close together that they covered up the sky. Couldn't even see the sunlight so it was just dull and damp. Just me and my friends. Saw a somewhat long suspended bridge like say the length of the bridge outside Fullerton Hotel. 6 men dressed in white carried a corpse but I didn't know what the corpse look like because there was a white sheet covering it. Then as the 6 men crossed the suspended bridge still carrying the corpse, they kind of swayed the mat whereby the corpse was on it and a gust of wind blew, blowing the white sheets away and I got to peek at the corpse.

Was so disgusted and scared because it was actually a decomposed corpse with arms below the elbow and legs below the knee amputated. The corpse was already dead for some time in the jungle that woody branches and leaves grew from his elbows and knees. The 6 men crossed the suspended bridge and buried him then one of the six men came and talk to my friends and I. He told us that the man was already dead for some time in the jungle so the 6 men went to bury him. We sat in a circle on the roots of the gigantic trees while he continued talking to us and to my horror I saw the already buried corpse walking TOWARDS me. I remained calm and pretended nothing happened because my friends did not see him coming. The decomposed corpse sat beside me and I got even more scared. I got to realize my friends could not see him but only I could do so. He opened his mouth as if he was trying to say something to me but I couldn't catch what he was saying because I was already so frightened and am still trying to keep myself calm... His jaws were intimidating with teeth like a carnivore and ever so bloody.

That was not the worse part. I don't really want to reveal the rest of it because it is something that made me cry.








Okay all's well at least for now. Am very glad that nothing of these has happened because there was one point of time , whatever I dreamt came true which was so freaky!

Attempted to revise Principle Of Management. (Note: attempted) so actually I have not really started studying. But really nothing to study whaaaaat! You all should come read what is written in my notes.

Met up with the girls for dinner @ Raffles Cityyyy. I don't know where we went to dine at but it works exactly like Marché and Manpuku. Had a great time celebrating Fiona's birthday in advance :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDA.T!!



Oh yay Econs is over. Ha ha okay it's time to throw my econs notes away before it turns into some maggots infested old treasure of mine. Soon I'll come to realize 'Isn't this what I've learnt 5 years ago?!'. I think time passes really fast. August is already coming to an end and hello September! Then I'll probably sing 'Wake me up when September ends' but thank God He spared my classmates the misery of having to hear me sing HA HA HA. But I don't really want September to end cuz I should be still enjoying my 7 weeks holiday ;)

Like I said I'm very sick and tired of eating my school food but today I felt like eating Western Food. Yum. As I was savouring my food, I don't understand why skinny people think they they are fat when they know they are not fat at all. Is it just that they want people to say 'If I had a figure like yours I'd die happy' and make them green with envy or do the skinnies think that they are really obese so much so that they are so determined to squeeze out whatever body fats they have in their body?

I am still proud that my biceps are bigger and harder than some of the guys in my class. Okay what.....what's wrong? I personally don't find myself fat but mom thinks I am....but she still buys me chips and I go 'wth mom you said I am fat then why are you getting me chips and chocolates and....'

Looking like a stick is not nice at all. Like this....


Wanna be this?



Or this? Her boobies look so fakey.



Or like Victoria Becks?




Victoria Beckham is set to be offered £3 million (SGD 7.2 million) to become a permanent judge on 'American Idol'.



The former Spice Girl has impressed bosses with her two guest appearances on the judging panel for the US talent show and they think she has the right credentials to take over from Paula Abdul.

However, programme executives want to make sure the British star connects with the US public before offering her the job as they are concerned they may be put off by her accent and skinny frame.

A source said: ''American Idol' is the highest rated show and they don't want to pick a judge viewers don't take to. Focus groups are going to be set up to judge Victoria's performance.

'There's some concern about whether viewers will think she's too skinny. They're also worried about her accent. She's started to talk in a very posh voice and some people might struggle with that.'

Day went quite well as planned! Umm slept in till 11, had lunch and met Daryl my classmate to get the cake aaaaand the balloons. K we were the masterminds of the surprise party. Thought I failed as a planner cuz not many turned up but stilll.... :)

Tried to blow the heart shaped balloons but Kenrick was darn hilarious!! He after he blew em one by one, they kept busting because his unshaved pokey stubs kept pricking the balloons HA HA. Wanted to give Wenxin a birthday surprise by crashing her place (initially) but we thought it wasn't very nice to do so, so we asked Daryl to lure the Birthday Girl to come down to teach him Econs but the Birthday Girl caught us all when we were trying to light the candles.

Pasir Ris library to study with 3 others and we ended up talking but it was damn fun. Oh man :(

And well don't ask me why my hair looks curlier in these pictures because the night before I was feeling bored so I tried curling my hair with the curler my friend bought for me for my birthday present last year ;)


cakey nutella cake


Happy 17th babeeeeeee me love you!

After all that has happened, all I can say is: Okay lor go be disgusted... Who are you to judge anyway? Have already mentioned, if you are not in this project group then do NOT interfere. Comments be it good or bad or siding me or anyone else I don't care just keep to yourself. If you are not in my shoe or my groupmates', you don't know what we have been through.

I think my mummy very sweet. Woke up and read my unread text message from her and it read: 'I've put some money in your wallet to help you tide over the next two weeks. Try to save as much as you can k. Love you!' Considering that my allowance exceeds some guys I know... Because I told mom that my expenditure went waaaay beyond my limits but I wasn't implying anything I swear. Just a comment when mom asked me how I was coping with the monthly allowance.

The match today was really exciting. But it made me angry too because of the first referee. Thank God for the second referee because he is from St Hilda's! Ha ha and actually I think he was just being nice that he did not catch us. The first referee was so against St Hilda's. This isn't new stuff at all. I knew it since I was in Secondary 4. Even up till now when I am all settled down at home, I still feel like pelting rotten oxygen sulphite eggs at him. When asked if we could start at the actual time slot at 8.15pm because some of our players have yet to arrive, he replied sarcastically 'Sureeee. Delay until 10 lor. See what happens.' But the matches made my heart pound so hard. Could even skip a beat at times because the score was so close and we were on the verge of losing but we won 3-2 in the end. Yay!

Dinner/Supper at Macs. So much for the report on the harmful effects of McDonald's for Comm Skills...despite researching high and low on how disgusting and unhealthy it is. Heck la my stomach is more important in any case. And if I grow a tummy I will consider taking up belly dancing! HA HA I NEED A LIFE. I need to find another hobby.

Sad to say this would be my very last game, ever. Haven't really thought about it long term but I mean for now. At least I should have the rights to take care of my body right? Health comes first, right? Can't make it for Thursday match cos I have a paper or Friday. Can't make it on Sat. Can't make it on Sunday's match either due to Monday's paper.

Oh man :(

Yesterday, or rather last night, was a day so full of.....drama. Even I, did not even let my best buds interfere in this matter and what rights have you got to come get someone shooting at us? Malign me never mind leh, you still got the cheek to ask someone to openly malign my group members at my domain. Seriously, I really felt a little bad having to type out two posts here on how angry we were until someone anonymous douchebag came retaliating at us like some...mad dog.

I don't really want to go into the details on how you have 'helped' the group. My groupmates fumed upon reading anonymous comments that came shooting at us.

Buttttttt, fyi jz, if you did not see the tag my friend Jag has tagged the previous evening, here's just a summary of how your good friend has actually helped us....
Jag says:
For more info, please visit www.i-brown.blogspot.com

If you didn't catch that,
www.i-brown.blogspot.com
www.i-brown.blogspot.com
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I think I can become to next XX #2 I do admire XX in a way okay)... You forced me into doing this!

Dearest JZ,

Who are YOU, to tell us that we gave our groupmate attitude? Who are YOU, in the first place? Are you just some passerby trying to add oil into the already disastrous fire and have fun at the same time knowing that your identity here is anonymous? Or are you her friend? I think you are quite a stupid friend of hers. Do you NOT know that you are making thing difficult for her? Are you an attention whore, so much so that I have to spend 10 minutes of my time dedicating this to you? Who are YOU to question us (kids) since you said we are year 1s. Do you want an answer to every of your question you tagged on my blog?

jz: and everytime she take the initiative, u people give her attitude? and now u guys say that, she gives lousy work tt u ppl have to edit. tt means, she did her part. jus tt its not up to expectations.

While we were all peeved at not having to practice our presentation in our Comm skills class, she approached someone and said 'Omg your top so nice. Where you buy from?'. What is THIS supposed to mean?
When we were all fuming and irritated trying to connect the laptop to the screen she sat down and texted non stop. During our presentation she realizes that your slides have errors and she jumped and made noise demanding why we did not help her change them. Why can she change them herself?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT? DO YOU KNOW WHAT IS PLAGIARISM? Did you know she just copied and paste the whole chunk of work without even giving credits. We wouldn't have even got a B+/A. Did you know we could have failed if we didn't edit her work?

jz: nv give attitude? ask yrself. u noe it better. well, im sure u're unable to give perfect work ivan. dont talk big.

Eh brudder, Ivan is a very efficient groupmate of mine. You know who Ivan, meh? You in our group, meh? You in our class, meh? You don't talk big also. You know nothing.


jz: complain so much.. why didnt u ppl bring it up to her during proj meeting, huh?

You are asking us, WHY?! Reason being we know she is the sort that if we told her such things even in a nice manner, she would be withdrawn from the group EVEN further before the projects end. You think we want her to be withdrawn? NO! We care, but we couldn't care less after that. This is it.

I think if I am caught up in such a situation, and my friend tries to 'help' me by making things 'better', I would say a thank fucking you to him/her and ignore for as long as I can.

'C did her projects properly' would be an understatement.

And if this domain displeases you, GO AWAY. And, cheers :)

Today is the first day in I-don't-know-how-many-donkey weeks since I had a nice sleep. Months rather! Am leading a very fast paced stressful life like the other poly kids. Really thank God for this study week to catch up on my sleep and of course, to study. Now I can throw aside alllllllllllll of my projects and study in peace... Could still remember the times I told myself to do my tutorials and I end up finding myself doing projects. So yay now I can focus.

I don't really know how to describe my day today. Well spent studying but on the other hand...not really well spent either. Revised Econs for the fifth (& hopefully last) time, did the past year paper all over again, started to talk to myself and making sure the formulae make a whole lot of sense.
But I had my share of playtime too. I think I spend too much time online shopping. Got 2 threadless tees for my brother!!

One of the shirt reads:






Then had a little chat with the BBB online and had a great time, say catching up? Ha ha ha okay momsy will be home anytime. Will go prepare some food for herrrrrr!

'A beautiful game is one when true sportsmanship is shown. Winning or Losing is nothing as long as you give in your 100%...'

Saw this somewhere and I couldn't agree more to this because I feel that this does not only apply to volleyball but in my daily life too. Hope that I will abide by this by giving my 100%.

On a sidenote,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND CHEWWWWWW!

Annnnnnnd, how's this? Gosh I need a revamp for my room. I need a room makeover. Will pick a day after the exams just the pack up my whole room! And omg Econs is driving me krazy. I have revised the whole of Micro Econs 4 times already and the formulae and graphs are at my fingertips... BUT I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I SHOULD APPLY THEM! :(
Help...

This evening, I was thisssss close to joining a volleyball club that I would be playing against this Tuesday... Okay lah more of curiosity and trying my desired position for the fun of it but noooooooooo cuz I made a promise to many that I would officially step down, right? I cannot afford to let my spine suffer any more injuries. 2 minor fractures are already a torture for me. A torture! Just one more mistake... All it takes is just one more major fall and it would lead to dire consequences.

Today I skipped the match and made the right choice to go to church with Venussssss! No regrets at all seriously. Ummm then I met my parents for lunch @ Delifrance and I changed my soup to the lobster bisque. You know... my family has this medical problem and we cannot eat hard shelled seafood but that does not apply to me but to the guys. But after I had the lobster bisque, my lips turned red instantly and it itched. Mom thought Dad was going to ask me if I was okay but Dad went: 'Now you know you took the right kids back from the hospital'

Was knocked out the moment I reached home. I slept till dinnertime which was around 7. Gosh, am so afraid that I will not be able to fall asleep tonight but thank God I won't have school for the next whole week! The good thing is that I will be able to stay at home to study and the bad thing is that, STUDY WEEK = EXAMS ARE AROUND THE CORNER!!!

Okay lah back to my books. Have not touched them in AGES.

Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above All

I think the money I have set aside for savings for my allowance this month is all gone! Expenditures are exceeding waaaaay beyond my limits. Birthday presents, wedding gifts, class chalet, jerseys and admin fees for tournament... Could easily cost nearly 200 bucks. Gone just like that.

Today, or rather yesterday, was a very special day for Geok Choo my bible study leader and Jun Hao. They both tied the knot and seriously it was such a heart warming scene. I want to have a church wedding in the future! I feel so peaceful deep within. It's like so traditiony because of the big brown doors which opened up for the bride and her father to walk down the aisle. But I had to do my ushering and had to sacrifice watching the bride and her father walking down the aisle.

Didn't really get to enjoy my tea reception cuz I had to rush down to Hougang Sports Hall for my game with SIM. Thank God for seniors who can drive and drove us there instead of taking the public transport.

Well today I felt that the game went a little wasted... We could have won SIM. Won the first set with a score of 25-1x (I forgot) then the next set we won too. Third set was such a lost fight and in the end we lost. So did the fourth and the fifth set... Really wasted!

I never felt much joy picking balls before. No lah not exactly picking balls but I did get to play too. But well, frankly speaking, I felt really happy and excited cheering for them and serving the team. Well franky speaking, if my coach sub me out for even a set and so happen that the set was lost last time when I was still in secondary school, I'd have went 'Ha they can't do without me...' but now I really really feel happy although I do not get to play much. Happy for the right reason and that is because it came from deep within my heart. I could never feel so much joy back then when I was in tpvb picking balls like some...dog.

Ok la I do not really want to talk about those bad memories. Time to sleep and give my match a miss to go to church. I hope I can learn to priortize my time :)

Awesomeeeeee! Today was awesome! Couldn't get any better :) Am very very happy with my group's presentation except for me cuz I got a little distracted when someone's phone vibrated (quite loudly) then it made me lose my focus but ah whatever, heck. What made my day was that MY COMM SKILLS REPORT GOT A LEH HAHAHA DIDN'T EVEN DARE TO DREAM OF GETTING AN A FOR COMM SKILLS. All the sacrifices were worth the while. Definitely. My eyes popped out when I heard my group got an A then we screamed for joy then we group hugged (then.... it's the inside joke within my group)

But I did quite average-ly for the Summative test and I hope the moderation will give me a better grade! But what made me not happy again was that her grade SHOULD definitely and rightfully belong to Huiwen instead. Tell me what were you doing when we were all panicky, trying to connect the failed bluetooth connection between the mouse and the laptop? Tell me what were you doing when WE were having a dry run for our presentation? TALKING. Always and forever talking. Don't tell me to quit being mean here but talking will make you lose weight, meh? I would like to reiterate my blog post on the 12th of August. Why are you so egocentric? Why do YOU always do things for yourself and when it comes to group work and discussion time, it is either you don't contribute, or you give shitass work?

The work you give is not low quality. It is, in fact, NO quality.


Don't tell me I am being such a bitch right here. I know I am and I look like one too. You totally deserve this. I do not do this kind of things until when I am exceptionally angry.

Ask me to do group project with you the next semester?
OVER.MY.DEAD.BODY
HA.


My classmates and I went for a celebratory lunch @ Jack's Place! Wished more people came though. I love little class outings like the one this afternoon. We were all bloated even before the desserts came. I peed 6 times in 2 hours. I think I pee a lot today! Just today! The kidz and I went to watch the Jack Neo movie and I think it is hilarious yet scary, but not scary, scary. The ghosts in the movie look so very fake lor lousy make up skills! But the scary part is when the ghosts suddenly appear in the screen.

Pictures from the past few days...











Today's

So much to blog but after I clicked the 'New Post' button, my mind went blank. Maybe it's because my mind is in a whirl... Maybe it's because....

K lah I am feeling much happier these days with really awesome moresome classmates that never fail to bring my childishness back in me (I am not childish. The REAL childish kid here is -Stares at Zhiting-) Yup I went back to St Hilda's today to meet my coach and I thought we were supposed to take bus 8 to Toa Payoh for the friendly match but his friends drove us there!!

Am hoping to get a nice jersey. A place set for my closet and to wear it during my trainings. But it seems like I will never wear it out because 1) IT IS NEON PINK (so embarrassing lor. Who'd take us seriously in the tournament?) and 2) Stupid t-shirt aunty did not tell us that there is no dri-fit pink jerseys so she made cotton ones instead. Gross :S

Friendly match was. How should I describe it. I personally think that we will definitely play better back at our 'home' because we weren't used to the grounds at TPY. And I played like shit so yes it was somewhat demoralizing. I always feel very pressurized when I am in court. Like when you put a hamster to an unfamiliarized place, it will feel like shitting. But for this case, I don't feel like shitting but more of I can't think what I need to do in court!

First match with SIM this Saturday... :S

Need to Chill. Breatheeeeeee!!

Today wasn't bad after all especially when we were at Mensa queuing for Salad Bar and joking about how fashion trends change over these years and people's fashion sense are getting more outrageous and crazy and.... The BBBs and I have predicted that the next pair of leggings will be the leg hair leggings! Then I joked about saying if a girl wears a maxi dress to zouk and when a guy grinds her, she should lift up her dress, use her leg hair leggings and brush it across the guy's calf which will then make him freak out.

Singapore Idol caught me laughing at the television screen. Totally need that extra dosage of laughter!!

When can I actually...

relax?

Just got home and am still in disbelief that I got a B for Princple Of Management. Did you guys know that I toatlly screw up my mid sem test, it got me so upset that I went home to stone that night! Thank God for Jagger Huiwen Ivan and Wilson for making the project almost perfect. However we missed the A grade by 3.5 marks but it's okay! Speaking of which, I am exasperated to the max. Did not feel that one of my groupmate deserved that score and I personally believe (actually everyone does) feel that Huiwen should get that grade in fact. We ALL have spent sleepless nights rushing through projects after projects. I skipped meals, sacrificed my sleep, skipped alumni training, just for the sake of projects. So much so that I actually neglected my studies while someone is actually FACEBOOKING 24/7, doing stupid quizzes to kill time. Sometimes I wished I have more than 24 hours a day. Everyone in my group feels the way except for you.

How have you actually helped the group? Editing the grammer? Everyone can do that. Did a certain part of the project? HELL NO! You did not give quality work (note: we ONLY want quality work and nothing else) so we had to redo the whole thing.

Today while we were all peeved at not having to practice our presentation in our Comm skills class, you approached someone and said 'Omg your top so nice. Where you buy from?'. When we were all fuming and irritated trying to connect the laptop to the screen you sat down and texted non stop. During our presentation you realize that your slides have errors and you jumped and made noise demanding why we did not help you change them. Why can you change them yourself? Why are you making us do everything? Why didn't you take the INITIATIVE to ask around if we need help? Did you? Think harder. If cannot, think twice. THINK THRICE. You are selfish because you only do your work and nothing else. I know this is how the world works- being selfish and doing what's best for oneself. But you totally went overboard. That I must say. Don't give the fucking excuse by saying 'Orh because you all never give me work mah...' Because firstly, you do not give quality work and secondly, we see how must initiative you take so that we can access you for the peer evaluation.

I must really commend Huiwen on her attitude to projects. Take web designing for example. She had to stay up late right up until 5.30 in the morning. She was SO tired, she had to give tutorial a miss. How about you? You think you are the only sick bird in the group? Huiwen and I fell sick too but we didn't give a damn because projects are the TOP of our list. Did you do anything for the group? Recalled what you did when we always meet up for projects. Facebooking throughout the whole session. Maybe that's commendable...

Am hoping to have peer evaluation for Econs but seems like there isn't. Huiwen asked you to help her in the ppt slides while she does her article but you just gave a cold shudder and replied 'I don't know how to do lah!' curtly. In the end, Huiwen was not able to pass up her work on time because she is helping you to do her slides. Whose fault?

Grading you half or a grade down is letting you off too lightly. You deserve more than that.

I am so sick and tired of being angry. I thought of telling you in your face but I don't know how to approach you because I GIVE UP ON YOU.

Infuriated.

I really do want to study but there are SO many distractions around me... Just so you know, I have been feeling very terrible latey. Not just academically but you know.... My results are already a huge disappointment to me. I have put in so much of my time and effort to do my projects and making sure it is up to my standard BUT I did not do well in any. That's just my thoughts but I don't know how bad is bad to you guys. Not very happy although my lowest grade is a C+. I wonder why is the polytechnic's marking scheme is so strict. If I were to change the grading system back to secondary school, I would have gotten all A1s, A2s and B3s with B3 the lowest grade. Now can you comprehend my stress level!!? Poly isn't that slacky afterall.
With this let me show you an interesing visual on how I study.
The words seem to drop..
drop.
drop.
drop.







I would very much like to thank Huiwen my Best BB for giving me a pep talk followed by a comfort food session. Thank you for cheering me up!!! And also to the classmates whom I sat near to during Econs today because you girls have really enlightened me what's best to do when I am in a midst of a difficult situation.

What made me so disturbed and left me dead stoning in Econs tutorial is the sport I love. Captain of shs alumni team texted me 'We have a friendly match with TP this Wednesday. Pleas be at the sports hall by 7.'
Then came another message from the TP's captain which said 'Reminder: we have a friendly match against SHS alumni this Wednesday. Please be in the sports hall by 6.'


I am so very stucked in the middle of nowhere.