someone disturbed my beautiful sleep at 9am. hurrr!
continued sleeping till 9.25. then mwt brenda and yanglin at tp, 10am.
i was 10mins late :/
watched the guys 3rd and 4th placing, and for the championship and runner up.
4th - VS
3rd - SQS
2nd - DMN
1st - SHS
yayyy :D shs won dmn 3-1.

thought today was my payday.
butbutbut, they havent even write the cheque. )*@&${*)^
went for a drink with the rest, went home.
slept till 7.30pm.
IM DAMN TIRED.
i dont know if i can sleep tonight anot.

gahhhhhhh.

anyway, cousins and auntie from aussie will be coming to visit all of us soon!
yayyy :D



edited
yayyyy! daddy allows me to buy that top frm nellyjoy.lj
:D x 1000

went to watch semi finals with meishan today.
shs won, yay :D
means tmr they're gonna play the finals, with dunman sec.
decided to leave the sports hall after 2 matches, went home, slept for 10mins, and went to tm to meet teammates for lunch at JLS.

somehow, something was rather disturbing when we were eating.

walked to school after our lunch.
had training.
played with c boys. sir said that was one of the best matches he had seen us play.
hahhaha.

home and tired.
food catered wasnt delivered to my doorstep.
have been catering food from some company. they cook for us, deliver to doorstep.
and that person delivered to the unit below mine. gahhhh.
kinda pissed me off. imagine if you're hungry and waiting for your food.
lol
pfffttt


-Where does the good go?

-Coming together is a beginning, keeping together is a process.

heyyy,
back from scoring. did 6 matches today :D
met shanice at st hilda's bus stop, went to mac to get hash browns and milo, and headed for temesek poly.
omgosh, and that man. i forgotten his name.
he's an old man.
he's super irritating lahhhh!
NONO. you must tick there, then tick here. then write the score! LIKE THAT MORE SYSTEMATIC!
gahhhhhh! my way also quite systematic whattt!
just that different way of doing.
lol.
scoring ended late, around 1.30.
went to canteen, then after that yang and meishan left.
left shanice and me. so we decided to explore tp. walked around. received many stares cos we were wearing the SAME THING.
same pants,same shirt, same hairstyle, same *
hahahaha. wont be saying.

waited for shanice bus, and walked the overhead bridge again, to get to my bus stop.
lol.
went home, drenched.
gahhhhh.
D:

went for training in the afternoon.
training was tiring, but it was worth the while :D
yanglin and i did setting. so tiring for me! no stamina.
no wonder i couldnt made the mark.
butbutbut, as i've said, i wont give up just as yet.
yup!
towards the end of training, played queen of the court.
hahaha my team is great! we all played rather well :D
could have gain manymany more points right?
ahahah! but i totally enjoyed myself.


after training, sir gave a few of us a lift the bubbletea shop.
went home after that.
:D

went out with spastics today.
oh myyy the show was awesome. totally cuteeee :D
i love that chipmuck.
felt uneasy in the cinema.
after the show had a hard time avoiding people :/
ahahahaa!
totally fun though. LOL.
omgosh i have so much fun with my spastics.
ilu people.
ilu too

random picture :D


heyyyy, went to church today.
didnt have youth service today. so went for the normal service.
obviously when shanice and i are being put together, we cant sit still.
so we were talking :/
andandand, we realised that we wore the same colour again.
when we go out in outing clothes, chances of wearing the same colour is 70%
lol.
and after church, wanted to call someone, so went to the handicap toilet to make the call.
apparently, the person didnt pick up the phone, so yup.
in the end, took some retarded pictures.

after church, went to airport to lunch with my family.
went to terminal 3. woah its damn big and nice.
hahahaha
i wanna go there in the near future. SOON!
lol.

home at 5, slept till 8.
im norturnal now. hurrrrrr.


anyway, cant wait to catch ENCHANTED with spastics tmr.
yayyyy :D






baby, its only you and me tonight. LOL.

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PICTURES TAKEN AT CHALET! :D

pardon me. my eyes were swollen at that time :/

credits to fiona's multiply!

my forever-happy pills.

supergirl in action

gracew, graced

dumb & gum

grace, grace, deanna, fiona

last 3 pictures were taken last year too. check it out(;

training was... okay.
when we did our warm up, sir called me.
talked to me about the main6 main12 stuff. asked to me to say my true feelings.
couldnt help but to cry.
and my tears were like, tapwater. hahaha.
p.s, my tears are more precious than tapwater okay.
ahahahah.

trained, and my eyes felt so swollen :/
went home, eat, bathed and slept.
woke up, my eyes felt so beady, so tiny -.-
was supposed to visit my grandparents.
BUT, they came to visit us in the morning, when i wasnt around.
so didnt went to grandparents' house already.
lol

vb guys are going to japan.
im jealous.
lol.

Happy birthday to Iggy Piggy!


(concerning another matter)
im feeling kinda uhh, weird.
funny feeling.
i dont know what to do man. lol.

My brother is such a pain in the ass.


heck, okay, nevermind.

Anyway, did scoring today. with brenda.
first match was 3 sets, super boring.
second set, walkover :D and the rest was perfectly fine.
had a drink with sir and brenda, and he drove us home.
home at 1.40pm.
talked to shanice for awhile. conversation was interesting.

and then i couldnt help but to fall asleep.
so tired >:(
woke up for dinner.
hahahhhaha.

hmmmm.
had my normal routine. went for training in the morning.
obviously, i wasnt feeling well.
was suffering from the mediocre flu.
totally sucky, no tinge of colours, looking half-dead and emotionless.
but i was dying to play. hahah.

wanted to throw out in the midst of training, but i beared with it :D


had nth to do at home.
so after trg, went to Shanice's place to slack :/
used the computer, watched movie, and stuff.
thanks for the chocs baby! LOL.
went home at around 5.15, and home :D


thats it.
I'm gonna support SHS'O' tmr.
VS, you're so dead. hahhaha. still dare to suan me.
hurrrr!

did scoring today,
not many matches, all 2 sets.

after that, went back to poi ching!
zhihao, and the vs ppl there.
played subset D: reminds me of my current helpless situation.
then nut came! :D
yeah and played in the hall dont know what time.
and we were asked to go outdoor court to play, cos lower primary was having their minisoft training.
gahhhh.
it was raining, but we still played 3 touch. 3 on 3.
heh.
fun!
then gathered at the canteen, talking about our schools. hahahaha.

nut, englek and me went to the community centre and ate something.
hungry! :D
so send nut to her bus stop and went home.

NUTTTTTTT WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MOVE TO HOUGANG?!

okayokay, anyway, there're 2 poi ching DSA girls.
they're joining us soon. yay :D

baby havaianas! so cuteee!

hey.
dont worry im feeling much better now, except for....
perhaps watching my teammates play while I'm left to rot aside.
yup, that was the most hurtful, uhhh, impact?

woke up feeling dizzy and had a headache.
it felt sucky, and i woke up super late today.
woke up at about 11.
met shanice at tp for lunch.
and rushed for training with shanice wearing her vas shirt and black skinnies.
the security guard was sososososo troublesome. omgosh man.
he demanded shanice to have her school uniform on before she could enter the school.
RIGHT UNDER THE POURING RAIN.
and i was like, uncle please lah we got training. now raining, sick i blame you.
i was pissed lah.
blabbered until the uncle gave up and made way.
YESSS! :D

there's a ball with no air
ms teo ask me to made a marking.
i dont know what to write.
so people, if you see the ball with 3 red words: 'no air ball!', i wrote that.
hahaha.
training was kinda moody.
watched teammates play while i was left to rot.
almost the last part of the training. i was pissed.
like, duh.
i shallnt pintpoint people. but still, please treasure your position.
now i want to play main6 also cannot.

anywayyyyyy,
poi ching girls and boys team got into the next round.
I'm so happy for them.
not forgetting my shs juniors too :D
go all the way okay. dont play like me or I'll throw stones at you.
lol.
and i was reading my pri sch junior's blog.
she says:
'while im left taking care of my team, Amanda's left taking the shit out of st hildas.'
eh what is it supposed to mean?
hah.


alright, I shall stop here. I dont want to behave like an old hag, so I'll stop blabbering.
:D

had a great time with chalet.
im happy that they ate my sushi. hahaha.
played, and crapped, and played and crapped.
those spastics never fail to make me laugh :D
those who came were fiona, deanna, xinying, graced, xinying, peilin.

later at night, played dares.
and we drew lots.
my dare was:
taking pictures when kissing each spastic.
gahhhh.
hahaha in the end i managed to do it.

then played another game.
had a cup of gin with ribena.
mind you, 43% of alcohol.
oh my, and i kinda struggled my way home.
i was groggy, andddd not to mention, my eyelids were heavy.
i just reached home, and just had my bath.
i feel better.
but still, feeling slightly dizzy.
luckily i didnt get knocked out, unlike the last time i drank strawberry vodka and rum.
i should be staying over, cos i forgotten tmr's trg is in the afternoon.

those people are my happy pills, really.
pictures up soon!


p.s. stop gloating over my misfortune laaa. want to be funny is it? NOT FUNNY. HA. HA.

It's not easy to let go okay.

I'm going for Fiona's chalet together with the spastics.
Hope this will be kind of a remedy session.
I feel like eating sushi. I'm making sushi for lunch, and my spastics.


Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now
I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now
I'm crawling back to you
If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating

If insensitivity does not knock on me, I dont think I'll come this far.

hey everyone,
I'm tired of tears. I'll try not to cry anymore.
you all dont deserve to see my red eyed black face.

was pondering, is it a blessing in disguise?
its is a good thing to find out that in such a crisis, I know there're true friends who are with me all the way?
I guess so.

anyway, led for youth worship.
wasnt as scary as i thought. yup.
wanted to cabbed down to hougang right away, but was told by a friend that they've played finished the first set.
shs won. congrats.

back home,
slept the whole afternoon. i didnt sleep well for the past few nights.
so tired.


As quoted, from Shanice's blog:

'i was there at the edge of the cliff now i fell and left hanging at the middle. why cant u just push me off the mountain and let me drop dead!'



I was at MY peak.

well done.
to hell with those decisions made early this morning.
i should have jolly well followed my mom for her hospital checkup.



i tell you something.
ST HILDAS B DIVISION GIRLS, NUMBER 7 NOT PLAYING.
SHE'S A RESERVE.
and thats me.
i seriously dont get it. what did i do to deserve this uh?
im not bragging or anything, just stating facts:
FOR THE PAST 6 AND THREE QUARTER YEARS, i've never laid that ass of mine on the bench for the whole match.
mind you, i said MATCH, not SET ehh.
that decision, caused drastic changes. some were happy. i wasnt.


this is the worst day of my life, really.
the feeling is like losing a loved one, seriously.
when mom was admitted into hospital, i was still into volleyball.
i didnt visit her.
heartless eh? NO.
as i've said, volleyball is my passion.
now, there's no motivation.
i cried the whole day.
early in the morning, decision carried out, spoiled my mood.
all i could do was cry.
disappointments? yeah, but i wont give up just as yet.
to think i had such high hopes.
and now, im some idiot on the bench waiting desperately to get sub in.
hey its just an opinion of myself on the bench. im not referring to others.
overseas for a holiday trip?
nay, i sacrificed them so that i can make it for training.

im not being selfish.
i just want to play, BADLY.
i know many people want to play too.
you all seriously dont know how i feel. so just lend a sympathetic ear and dont try comforting me.
take 5 years of my life away. i just want to play for the last year.
i dont care, even if it takes 10 years.

p.s. im not blaming anyone. im just dissatisfied the way the new formation is.

anyway, went to church after that with swollen eyes.
tmr leading for worship. sung.
those lyrics really want to make me cry.

went home, bathed.
met my lovely spastics. thankyou for lending those sympathetic ears, i really appreciate it.
you all are still the best, i love you.
i couldnt help breaking down again.
like, cmon lah. i dont know if you all(readers) think im crazy or what.
cry cry cry, got nothing better to do is it?
trying losing your spouse of 7 years.
volleyball isnt my spouse. take it as an analogy.

okay, then went to peilin's church for some event.
along with fiona, deanna and xinying!
yup, the video was great.
i really wanted to cry.
the guy motivated me. im gonna carry on.
im gonna fight my way out okay.

then went to mac, slacked there till like 9.45.
then went home.
i feel great with my spastics. i really dont know how to thank you all.
thank you so much.


a big thank you to those who tried to comment on my mistakes. i'll change them.

struggled to wake up again.
slept at 1 to 2am
almost late.
rushed to tp like a mad woman :D
hahhaha wanted to do the boy's court. but ahwell its okay :D
thought there was 9 matches today, but turned out as 8.
rahhh rahhhhhhhhh>:(
then 1 of the VAS ball missing.
then jay lloyd told us that if the ball went missing, we'll be flipping scores for nth.
i didnt know VAS used such expensive balls.
expected it to be like. 30 plus.
turned out to be 60 plus bucks, due to its material.
lol.

gahhhhh. hope they wont deduct :/

last game of the day was the worst.
firstly it was an u13 match, meaning it wont be fast and exciting when it comes to girls
and the score was like, 1-1, 2-2, 3-3, all the way to 24-24.
exactly the same for both sets lah
omg lah.
sian!

i can upload the pictures. like, finally >:)


bleah :P

couple tee?

those 2 behind!

my nails. painted and taken by clare chan :D

and clare's coat!

tsktsk! who are these childish ppl?

lol.

ehhhh ehhhhhh.
blogger's really gotta problem man.
i hate blogger. rahhhhh >:(
cos i cant post pictures.

anywayyy, slept like a pig till 10 this morning.
stoned and talked on the phone till like 11.15, cooked maggiemee and ate till 12.
then i was so tired, i slept until 12.40.
then i was like, omg.
gonna be late for training D:
rushed out of the house, forgot to tie my hair.
realised that i didnt tied my hair when i reached the bus stop
rushed home and to tie my hair.
went to busstop.
then this time i was like, shit
i forget to bring my towel
then aiyah. too lazy to run again.

so i cabbed to school.
rahhhhhhhhh.
when warming up after the 7 rounds, the auntie say got extra food.
asked if we wanted.
then we were like, YAHYAH.
then brenda, shanice, yanglin and i went outside auditorium
we got refreshment
nothing beats a cup of orange squash.
so thirsty.

during training, everyone could spike well
sir thought the net was too low.
then we measured it. he was so impressed.
everybody's ball was like, all piang down
butbutbut, mine didnt D:
so pressurised.
only a few balls were nice. yup.

ahhhh yeah.
tmr im gonna do scoring at tp
but dont know who the hell changed to 6bucks per match D:

went for phyics lesson today.
late by 30 mins :/
Mr Hong's not gonna teach us anymore.
so long! goodbye mr hong!

gahhhhh.
struggled to wake up.
after physics lesson, went to st hildas primary for some kind of fun fair
and hey, this is the first time i walked ard shps
hahaahah
baohui and i made a badge each. had our picture on it :D
omg is so nice man

went home, rest.
then met clare, cabbed to hougang sports hall.
felt bad. didnt pay.
and thennnnn,
watched match
shs girls won junyuan primary.
andand.
POICHING PLAYED AGAINST JUYUAN SEC
poiching won 2-0
omg lah. i was so worried. and puzzled
shouldnt junyuan pri play against poi ching?
but ah, im happyyyyyyyy that they won :D
ahahahah
then went home, rest :D


play, do your best!
i'll hold pompoms and cheer for you!
♥

ahahahh. okayokay.

damn hilarious.






[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
grace!

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
u got LS?

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
ls?

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
lao sai. -.-

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
have mah?

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
nooo

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
hahah

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
you?

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
me and amanda have.

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
i think..

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
just felt like throwing out. plus stomache

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
its YOUR honey!

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
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★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
hahah

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
i think..

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
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★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
thanks uh

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
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[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
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[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
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[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
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[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
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★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
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★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
haahah

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
say seriously, really

[c=41]JONNY! ™[/c] says:
really

★gracew Hello Iggy-piggy the monkey nehneh(: says:
wahhh. hahahah

hey everybody.
i dont know what's wrong with my computer.
i cantttt upload any pics.
i helped shanice to create her blog, and she has so many icons when creating post.
and i only have like, 7 pathetic icons.
helpppppp!

ohwell, tried deleting and create the blog again.
still unsuccessful!
>:(

anywayyyy.
today, went to watch shs falcon and kingbird's match.
stayed at tp the whole day.
yup.
tp's like my second home alr.
lolololol.

gah! have physics lesson tmr.
i feel like giving it a miss.
but, nah.
i dont want to lose out :D