Sighz I almost got a heart attack today thanks to the impromptu speech given during Public Speaking tutorial. Tutor already gave us a topic initially and we planned our speech. We were nervous kids but the thought of it even at this point of time still gives me the jitters. Just then the tutor said, she's about to give another speech and that is, the real speech we're supposed to plan for. And we were only given TWO minutes to plan it. My heart dropped. Skipped a beat. Almost stopped.

Not only that I got so frightened when my iTouch went faulty. I mean...it's kinda brand new given that it's just two weeks old so young so fragile I could consider it as my baby. But I thought, I can't be that suey right of all the iTouch made in the Apple Factory I got the malfunctioned one. Decided not to head to town to get it repaired cos my lazy ass refused to get out of the house. And I decided I should just reset it. Lo and Behold it worked! So now my baby has recovered!

Now Ghee Woo just called me and I really wanna meet up with her tomorrow. School ends at 1!! But projects are such killjoy.

Miss you lots wor Ghee Woo Fei Fei hahahahaha

I swear I damn tired now lor walau my act of kindness was unappreciated and I didn't have enough sleep last night. Could only start on my tutorials at 1 in the morning when I should already be in dreamland. Sigh these days I'm very stressed and upset over my projects, lectures, tutorials, friends, etc. Another matter which leaves me baffled is that....don't really wanna say it cuz it's public and if you want to know please ask me and I'm not obliged to tell. Woke up slightly early this morning to choose my diploma streaming but didn't have the balls to click confirm until I did it with my classmates -.- Was late for Organizational Behaviour cuz I was talking to my friend. Which made my day slightly better. Like maybe 30cm long.

Today's Biz Stats lecture was such a bore. Really wanted to fall asleep but I know I can't because my test would be up next week. Don't really understand why some people freak out when they only have one project to handle as if it's the end of the world whereas we kidz have tons of projects and deadlines to meet. Presentations and preparations. And overall appearance. Oh btw can someone teach me how to put on make up? I need em for Public Speaking. We the girlz were all told to put on some make up walao walao.

Public Speaking Impromptu Mock Speech tomorrow. Kill. Me.

Last night I made my parents sit down and discussed which diploma I should major in. They are very, very against Logistics Operations and Management although I love Mathematics because the lecturers and tutors didn't give them a good impression during the parents' orientation, which leaves me with Diploma in Marketing and Business. Frankly speaking I wouldn't mind both but family thinks that Biz is too vague a course because like what Ken said 'Jack of all trades master of none'. Sure, I might be good at every single aspect of biz but ultimately I don't even know where I'm heading because it's too wide a course. Henceeeeeeeeee and therefore, my parents and brother are really supportive of me taking up Marketing since I talk a lot and I tend to disturb people when I talk. And I like networking although I am shy when I talk to strangers. I like to do all kinds of things and sometimes embarrass myself unintentionally. Well that's meeeee....!

I hope I will make the best out of Public Speaking to boost my confidence for my new course. But hang on, my second choice is Biz and I always have the gut feeling that I'll get my second choice. Because in every competition, every choice I make, I always end up getting my second choice. Not a bad thing after all because most of my classmates are gonna major in Biz/LOM. St Hilda's was the second choice for my Secondary school posting and I'm not regretting it at all!

Back to the point. In one way or another I think Marketing really suits me. So does Biz. Hiyah I don't know lah I shall complete my tutorials, sleep, wake up, see the sun shine and I'll be happy, and then I'll make my final decision.

Sigh I'm really facing quite a number of problems now and they're all very different. So hard, so hard. Why am I masking myself?

If there's a song that can describe me now, it'd be Reflections.

If I wear a mask

I can fool the world but I cannot fool myself.

.

Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?

When will my reflection shows who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly

That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal what we think and how we feel?

Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time

When will my reflection show who I am inside?

Hallelujah my Singtel Mio Broadband is finally fixed!! Yesterday was hell because we couldn't use the home phone aaaaaaand there was no internet connection. It kinda showed the bad side of me because I realized that I'm a slave to technology.... Or rather I really needed the internet connection because not only do I need it for entertainment, but for projects as well!

Yesterday morning I went to collect my parcel at the post office and accompanied Fatz for her haircut. But yesterday....it was such a waste because I couldn't join my classmates for the mini class outing. Dad was sick. Mom was falling sick and I needless to say I had to help around the house. Attended Jolene's band concert at Republic Polytechnic in the evening and went to tap on RP guests' internet connection (walao you see how much I needed it) until the battery went flat. Not to forget that we were busy competing who's best at Tap tap revenge.

Crazy night out. Only got to reach Tampines at 12.15 a.m. and to the prata shop only at say, 12.30 a.m.? Ferdinand made me lost my appetite so badly that I decided not to eat my second prata. Was hungry cuz I didn't have dinner!

This afternoon was Maternal Grandma's 76th Birthday and Dad drove all of us to Jurong for a big birthday lunch. Happy Birthday Grandma!!

Visited my Paternal Grandma after that and I was told that my cousin's gonna be a new dad! :O Yay another aunty to be.

I've got photos in my cammie but I'm to lazy to upload them so here are some from Jolene's SLR.

This wasn't as gross as what we saw.

This, is comparable to the one Ferdi disgusted us with last night.

I think I'm gonna be broke by the end of this Semester because I have to keep patronizing Starbucks and Coffee Bean frequently. What's more, on the same day. And if best, to patronize the cafés as frequent as possible...! To make things worse, it eats up into my meagre monthly allowance. Actually it's not meagre sum but it's just that the way I manage my money, I end up spending all instead of saving em! :'(

Body not feeling well. Something very wrong happened to me in school yesterday and today I was kinda sulking all the way. No mood for everything, no mood for everybody. Sorrrrrry.....!

K at least things got better when we started on our marketing project at 5p.m. and we were at the Starbucks opposite Fullerton Hotel. Hopped over to Coffee Bean, our competitor, and analysed and my groupmates went home while I met Fatz Woo and Ghee Woo at Starbucks at Simei. Zzzz had to dine in there again!

K so tomorrow I shall try to be an early kiasu bird and queue up at the post office for my long-awaited parcel. Looking forward to another one next week! Or if best, tomorrow!! And then accompany my dear Fatz for a haircut!

Hihi today my classmates and I were trying really hard to fight for our rights to have our Macro Economics tutor change because it's US that pay for the education. I really, really hope I can change my tutor man or else I'll fail my Macro Economics badly. Badly.

Hence my facebook status.

CLASSIC!!

Walau I think Wednesdays are going to be my most hated day. Well at least for the next four months or so... I dislike my Macroecons tutor!! Don't know how I should put it but anyway I bet you guys will dislike him too. Not that he's mean or whatsoever he just whines and fuss even when we sneeze. Like what the hell right!!

Speaking of which I think the girls I'm close to in the class caught the flu buggy and I'm not an exception. Pretty sad!! Because it was darn hard for me to concentrate during lecture and I couldn't really hear what the lecturer was teaching because I was busy blowing my nose and that was part of the fundamentals of Macro Economics. Must.catch.up or else I'll die trying to catch up at the later part. Once bitten twice shy I must learn my lesson and pull my sockies up! I must, I must, I must. But the iTouch is such a distraction.

Must control. Must control.

School's a bore and there's nothing interesting going on cept for projects and tutorials. Feeling so tired right now but I cannot stop playing with my iTouch. Me new love.

No special occasion to be feeling extraordinarily thrilled and ecstatic today but I am!! I feel so blessed. I mean...I know that all long but it's just that I can't stop emphasizing that how blessed I am.

K frankly speaking I wasn't in the best of moods when I got up for school this morning because my eyes were still feeling sore from not sleeping for the past 41-42 hours? What's more, my Public Speaking lecture was cancelled at the last minute so I stayed back in school for 2 hours, for nothing. But come to think of it, it's a blessing in disguise because I can start my project with my Public Speaking classmates early so that it'd end early, which it did! Dropped by Deanna's place to collect clothes from the spree! Thanks Deanna!! Also got to talk to some of her course mates at her place and they are nize people.

Headed home feeling so exhausted with my laptop, a bagful of tops and a packet of accessory in my backpack which was damn heavy and in search of a chicken rice stall so that I can tapau for dinner. Walau all the stores close so being so tired and down I lugged myself home. Didn't notice the two iTouch Dad and Mom got for Ken and I. Kinda thrilled go see them after some time cuz I've been wanting to get the 32GB iTouch all these while and right now I see it smiling at me, sitting nicely at the mini coffee table beside the sofa charging. How wonderfullllll! Not that I'm financially incapable of getting one SGD 500 iTouch for myself but I feel the pinch. I feel so happy right now.

Really thought I'd pengsan during the sermon today because I only had one hour of sleep. I couldn't help but to sleep at 6a.m. not because I want to and I am a late night person, but more of struggling to write up my public speaking speech and reading notes on marketing. Can't believe that projects are throw at us when we barely understand the definition of marketing, marketing. Surely marketing isn't just... trying to get rid of your products at the quickest time possible or neither is it just trying to earn the largest amount of profit to be made. There are more that meets the eye and there are a lot of things to learn. And I mean, A LOT.

Studying in a polytechnic, to me, feels like I'm working already. Lectures are like attending seminars, tutorials are like administrative work like everyone will do everyday working in an office, and projects are like....projects, because any other job requires group projects. And then there is a little bit of internal conflicts, and maybe a bit of unhappiness amongst groups. But studying is less hardcore than working life.

I was so exhausted that I refuse to answer any calls or to reply messages but to sleep.

This weekend is such.a.waste.

Omg it's November already. It's November. I really didn't know it until I saw one of my secondary school classmate's facebook status 'It's November already!' See how time flies...? It really scares me. It was only January then when my heart was palpitating so, so badly waiting so ever nervously in line to collect my GCE O level results and now I am rushing through hours of lectures, timeless amount on tutorials and never ending intangibly piling projects. I could still imagine myself enjoying those moments before poly started; going out chillin' with the bestest friends I ever have everyday and seeing myself at the beach on weekends playing volleyball. Now that this year's GCE O levels is almost coming to an end, it really makes me kinda anxious for my brother, and it also makes me wanna reflect and think what I've done this whole year.

Speaking of which I'm really very stressed over projects. Lectures from 10-7 tomorrow and Public Speaking focus group meeting from 7 till late :'( Not to mention that the topic given to me is pretty hard because I have to really dig out all the information of the greatest speaker of all time and to analysis his darn speech. I'm choosing Sir Winston Churchill and pray that it'd go pretty well. And then my marketing project. I intended to write up my speech tomorrow after my church service and go to bed right now but after receiving somewhat like first-hand information, I have decided that my projects are more important than my sleep and I MUST complete my speech before I turn in and wake up at 7 for church. And then when I come back from church I must read up the whole of marketing so that I have an idea of how I should start of with my project.

Yesterday was Halloween and I spent almost the whole day sleeping because I am really deprived of sleep but I am regretting it because I should have spend my time more wisely, like doing the speech! Time's running out and this is demoralising. I must prove you wrong.

Ho my gosh and I still need to prepare my valedictory graduation speech, AND another mini speech. I am no RoboCop Girl.

TGIF! Time flies and the second week of school is over. In just another month's time, I'd be taking my mid semester tests already. My favourite tutor, which is, my Marketing Fundamentals tutor told us that the second semester of year one will be the fastest semester of all the six :'(

This morning I dragged myself to school cuz I've been having late nights lately. Or rather, always. Can't seem to kick the habit of turning in late. Crashed morning lecture so I didn't have to attend the afternoon's one. Today was perhaps slightly different at least for me, because Organizational Behaviour lecture was waaay more interesting than Business Statistics tutorial. My classmates Jolene Mel and Andrew vandalized me during tutorial.

It's Friday and I can't believe I've been spending the past few Fridays sleeping when I'm supposed to go out and enjoy to my fullest! What a waste!! Hopefully next Friday would be a more interesting Friday because I'd be in town. In town.......doing my market studies and analysis at the respective cafés -.- ya but nevertheless at least I'm out chilling at a café right!! :)

K I did some personality profiling below because my Organizational Behaviour lecture asked us to do so and so did my tutor! I am 90% extrovert and am quite surprised by that.

How nice if this were to last.

Jo-Jolene!

With Melanie's

Jolene did this during tutorial -.- Got pimples ah I shy dunwan you to see my shy pie face :$

Melanie was no better and did this -.-

Andrew was the worst!!! -.-