Hi, this is a little too much for me to bear.
I'm getting piles and piles of homework and it's like I-can-complete complete but I-can't-complete kinda thing. I'm bombarded with so many worksheets and I force myself to do them before I retire for the night but sometimes I can't help sighing when I look at the mountainous piles of never-ending worksheets.
I did 3 Amath papers yesterday and I felt so accomplished. Today sucks. There's chinese compo, chinese worksheets, chinese, chinese, chinese. And teacher says she won't mark or go through the worksheets. What logic is this, what do we gain then?
I mush credit my hard work in my lower secondary days for getting me into 4G. There's so stiff a competition that I can't find any way to please myself academically. The downfall came about when I turned into a rebellious and playful but yet conscious minded girl last year. Too late, I think it's a little too late already. It's like the myth of a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Right now I'm navigating my way, I know where to head and I'm in the midst of the journey, but I'm too lazy and a little less motivated to complete this journey. I know I'll get something out of it, prolly not a pot of gold, but it takes so much just for that little bit of improvement. 4 months from now, I imagine myself jumping with joy when I see my results but sometimes it's really easy to lose my focus somewhere.
Even till now, I still delve into my lilliputian world of comfort thinking that there is roughly 40 days or so, not until when I saw Bao's diary which roughly says there is about 30 days left. 10 days make great differences.
Today after school was comfort finger food with Gladys but I got a shock of my life instead of having the time of our lives chatting away when we finished up the food. People tend to get so bold now. And perhaps disrespectful.
I'm so tired. I skipped night study.
I have chinese compo, one whole big pile of chinese worksheets (You gotta see this, it's disturbing), 3 POA papers, 1 Chemistry paper, 1 Physics paper, 1 Social Studies paper to finish before I get to school tomorrow.
Bless me.
I'm so tired.