SHINGZ OFF MAN SHINGZ OFF HAHAHA k I'm kidding.

Finally a day to rejoice because it's Friday. Haven't had such a tiring/boring Friday for quite some time considering how I've spent past eight Fridays. Late nights out, feeling happy hyper and restless but not this Friday. You could say that most of my energy have been depleted and I am just so lazy to get my ass out of my house. It's an awesome Friday night and I'm home feeling very exhausted already. What a waste, really. Especially when I'm not in a very good mood today. I think it's just pre menstrual syndrome. There's nothing much I can do to suppress all my irritation, anger (God knows why I have no idea bout that) and perhaps restlessness. Damnnnnn.

Anyway lecture was a bore today and we the classmates wanted to catch My Sister's Keeper but we missed the timeslot so I gave it a miss. Got some Body Shop soap for myself!! I think it's therapeutic for me and I'm lovin' the Wild Cherry flavour. My all time favourite is the Grapefruit one though. Actually I got em cuz I needed to refill my little bottles when I'm out like say Sentosa to bathe....

Literally collapsed on my bed as soon as I got home and oh did I mention that my hair grew longer, again? What the hell why does it grow so fast!!

Yesterday went to the complex to play with the slides again and swam quite a bit! Lunch was at Jack's Place and teatime at Teadot. Yumz luv it! Yesterday was also Fatz's 21st so Happy Birthday Fatty Soo please grow up! Now, Xin knows my weak spots and she knows what to say to make me smile so sweetly and not to look like a cold hard bitch when I'm stoning. Still don't get it why people say I look exceptionally fierce when I'm looking lost!

For now I think I'm gonna paint my nails neon pink so bye!!

Want this so much but it's sold out :'(

Yes/No? Yes yes yes?

I am desperately searching for my volleyball. I NEED the ball now. Now. Neither is it in the store room nor in the utility room. Can't remember if I lent it to anyone but as far as I can remember, I did not and I need it nowwwwwwwwwwwww. I really got the urge to do some wall passing before I go to sleep tonight. Really. I am desperate for a volleyball. Right. Now.

Got up pretty early today for breakfast with Venus then headed to school for my most dreaded tutorial, Public Speaking. Really kinda dread it and almost didn't want to go to school this morning because I don't know anyone and I am scared of getting into a new environment. Everything seems so strange and awkward and I was seated alone. Alone!! Actually everyone else did until slightly later when there were more people streaming into the classroom, my tutor told everyone to move in. This girl approached me and asked me if I was so and so's classmate and we talked. Not thaaaat bad but still feeling jittery when I am supposed to introduce my new friend to the class, in MY dialect. Which is, Cantonese. Holy cowwwww I am a sucker at dialects even though I was brought up by my Hokkien and Cantonese grandparents. So I spoke Chinese, which wasn't at all impressive. Heard some people at the back laughing at me. My new friend thought I was someone who does ballet, piano and everything demure but her jaw literally dropped when I told her I do sports. She screamed.

Walau first tutorial already need to form groups and start on my Public Speaking project. Gotta start preparing my speech already when I don't even know the rest of my classmates.

Macro Economics was disgusting. Then a seminar talk at the convention centre from four to six. Jolene and I were trying to control our bladders which was a really hilarious sight, I thought.

I realize I get tired pretty easily and that I have no idea why. Ah shucks that sucks.

Swam at the swimming complex again this morning before my lecture!! Yep I know it's quite stupid of me to go there but why not, right? I wanna play with the yellow slide so hence I ended up there. Swam with Xin and I promised I'm gonna get serious with swimming. At least a few laps each time and what's more swimming is good for my back. Yes, swimming is.

Business Statistics was such a bore. Okay maybe it's because we learnt nothing but mean median mode. And learning what histograms are. Was feeling really sleepy during the lecture and I thought, how am I gonna take this for fourteen weeks?! :'(

Got my books already! Pretty pricey I'd say.

HIIIIIIII I really got a sudden urge to blog! I think I contracted ADHD today cuz I was really hyper. Haha I know it make no sense because it cannot be contracted but I feel so bouncy today. This morning I kinda struggled to wake up for the 10 a.m. lecture but when we got there, the lecturer announced that the lecture was cancelled. Peeved because I could have slept in a little longer. Really happy to see all my classmates again!

I like my public speaking lecturer cos she makes a great belly dancer. She's reallllly cute! Now Jag, I'm not mean cuz it's from the bottom of my heart!! Accompanied Venus for her Calculus CDS class am thinking if I should choose Calculus over Public Speaking because it's so much easier! Like the really, really basic Additional Mathematics questions any mediocre Secondary Three student can solve. Damn right, it's really easier!

Today. Hmm random much but on my way home this evening I couldn't help thinking of random stuff. No offence to you all man but idk like I said I was hyper and thinking of whatever I could think of. Like, shallow people. Wonder why such people even exist. Another thought of the day: Blinded by Love or Love is Blind. Well I think you fall into both categories. Really pity you but it's okay for that I really hope you get your well deserved punishment and get heartbroken ;) Sorrrry you know, I'm just being mean to people who dislikes me. Well not really dislike, dislike but what you heard from other people when they themselves don't even know me personally.

Another thought of the day: Why do people lock their blogs? Okay aside privacy? Blogging about flings and scandalous affairs? C'monnnnnn that's not really a big deal. Be open about it, dudette! Life is short so we must enjoy the best out of it. Not detesting you that you have flings but just a word of caution, when you place both your feet into one boat each and when both can't hold you anymore, you'd probably just drown. And die. Maybe.

Sorreh I told you I'm random like that. Can't help it. Just.a.random.thought.and.nothing.else.

Hi the sleeping legend is back. Today I did nothing much because I was hibernating. Feeling slightly lousy already because my first lecture in Semester Two starts in say, twelve hours' time?

Wonder why some poly kids have such a slacky timetable because many of my other friends have a day or two off from school every week whereas I have to wake up so.damn.early!! Let's just hope Semester Two will go smoothly and then I can say bye to Year One. Not to forget, to excel this time round so that it'd pull up my grades. Still don't know what should I major in tho but then again I just hope I do well for this Semester first before thinking of where I should go.

GCE O Levels, to be exact, starts in THREE days time. Wonder how the Physical Education paper would be like. I wished I took that.

Tell me who would like a timetable like THIS.

Today I think I spent more than half a day sleeping. More like hibernating I would say, because after I had lunch, I went back to sleep until dinner was served. Needed to replenish all my energy wasted for the past few weeks. Phew, it's been tiring but pretty fun on the whole! Now that school is starting, I need to do last minute shopping for my pencil case. Running out of pens and pencil leads. And maybe erasers and highlighters and rulers and whatever I can think of. Can't find all my stuff except for my mini case which contains colour pens and my blue whistle hooked onto it. Need to get a new Official's Assistant shirt and maybe a better whistle and a set of Official's uniform if I were to get take up the referee course. Found someone to go with me already!! Am still finding people!

I don't know why. Is it just me or is it the weather that makes me feel so sleepy.

I like this! Because I took this picture and Peilin looks like she's disappearing!

I know some Auzzies read my blog but

This was sent by one of my relatives who resides in Australia and the subject of the email says 'You gotta love Australia, I know I do!'

Hi! Am back from today's activities and am feeling sleepy. Initially I was feeling a little awkward going back to school because I thought nobody else's siblings would attend the graduation ceremony until I met Afiq!! Yay.

Teachers came up to me and said I look like a half Malay already :O Is it THAT bad. I think they were exaggerating, were they...? But I knew they weren't lying when they said my face got rounder :'( ha ha.

Cut my hair. Looking short (not shorter) now. There's a thin line between looking short and looking shortER fyi so yup I'm still getting used to my new look. After which we went to Katong for a four hours karaoke session. Can't sing for nuts and was feeling so shy but people like Xin Selena and Ckay made me feel so comfortable so I wasn't feeling so shy already. We sang Phantom of the Opera and I must admit that Xin makes a good superano! I had a hell lot of problems trying to read chinese characters especially those in the fan ti zhi.

Can't take my eyes off Leighton Meester so I got this month's CLEO issue. Ohno I sound like a lesbo here don't I!

Am feeling very chirpy now I just need to talk a lot. Right now!! Kk gonna go off to chat with my friends and I'll leave some pictures here before I go!

My camera's not feeling well today and sorry for the lousy pictures! The rest are up on facebook!

Got Public Speaking for my Cross Disciplinary Subject!!! My first choice was French and Public Speaking was second.... Not that I dislike/hate my second choice, but it's just that I'm not mentally prepared for it because I've been thinking French, French, French and nothing else. So what, I can take that next semester right? Anyway Public Speaking is also one of the Cross Disciplinary Subject I wanna take before I graduate but He does things in His time. Maybe He thinks that by taking Public Speaking now, it'd greatly improve my presentations for projects and I may score better rather than waiting till Year 2/3.

Timetable sucks and I won't be able to crash any of my friend's lecture. What's more is that, three of my project group mates for the previous semester will be classmates for Public Speaking whereas I'm all alone. Alone. Everyone's gonna think why is there an unfriendly bitch in their class. Ha ha maybe I should talk a lot so that people won't get the wrong idea that I'm a cold hard bitch.

Just got home and settled down from a picnic at Marina Barrage. Happy Birthday Xinying!!! Luv you and we are so gonna prove to everybody that we ain't bimbos!! Am very glad that all of em like my muffins! Very tired already and I've gotta wake up early later on for my brother's graduation ceremony. Can't imagine I was one of the students sitting in the hall eagerly waiting to get my graduation certificate on stage and proudly grin and proclaim ' HALLELUJAH I'VE GRADUATED!!!' Now I'm gonna be the audience looking at all those tensed up faces.

Gonna get a haircut after the ceremony. Fo real!

Nicer pictures up soon but they're not with me :'(

Day out with Gladys Dearest today!!! Met up quite late so didn't have a lot of time to catch up. Tea time was Teriyaki Chicken Cheese Pizza cos I had a voucher to use before it expires and it was yummy. Today I controlled my expenses and am very proud to announce that I spend almost nothing today, not until the last part. Didn't know bro has tuition which starts at 8 so I took my own time to get back to Tampines. Only after I reached Tampines, he informed me he had tuition so I literally flew to get him dinner and cabbed home despite the peak hour. Oh no sucks to be broke.

And not forgetting I went on a shopping spree on F21's online store. Oh am gee.

Today I caught Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs and I was the biggest kid in the cinema!! Who are you kidding I'm not a kid actually. Can't wait to turn eighteen! Not very happy being seventeen although nothing bad happened so far this year but it's neither here nor there. I'd say the movie was cute but there isn't any link between the title of the movie and the movie itself because I thought it was supposed to rain meatballs but I think I saw less than ten of them but more of cheeseburgers ice cream jellybeans and beef patties. Is Ikea trying to sell their meatballs?!

Eyelids are heavy already because I got up at 7.30 a.m. this morning so that I could be the first patient to see the doctor (ha ha ha typical s'porean but I wouldn't want to wait and suffer). Seriously, the waiting killssssss. Clinic opens at eight thirty and the doctor wasn't even here until ten -.- and I blew 200 bucks for today's and the previous' visits. The small glass bottle which contains my lip balm, slightly smaller than the circumference of my two thumbs cost about 30 bucks. Pathetic muchhhh but it really does work wonders because it's already working on me. I still refuse to use the nine step skin care because it's such a hassle and I don't think there's a problem with my skin whether if it's long term sun exposure or not. In other words I'm just too lazy. I'm not the girly girl that maintains myself like a real girl does and I get pretty grossed out if I see a girl whining at their pimples/zits. No biggie!

K gotta go catch some sleep already because I got to wake up early to bake muffins for my family and for picnic on Thursdaaaay!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Collection II is up @ www.candyzebras.blogspot.com. Pretty pieces like this won't disappoint you. So be quick and support my dear classmate!!

Today I got up late again. I overslept because I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE THE LG PHONE. Damnnnn I really hate it but thank God I got my phone back. Finally!! So I met Xin and Ckay late but we still went swimming before our badminton session with the rest of the classmates. It was my first few times at the swimming complex....or was it the first since it has been renovated? I think, the latter. I was so lost and I asked if I needed a ticket to get into the swimming complex and the man laughed really hard. The chlorine water is saltier than the one downstairs and that makes it reaaaally gross. Omg I really have no idea how am I going to survive in the public pools next time should I move out. And then I stood there standing by the poolside stoning and not daring enough to take off my fbts to my swimsuit.

Xin asked "Why are you not taking em off?"

"Because I.......never see so many people in the swimming pool before....."

They burst out laughing -.-

Badminton session was

Lunch was at Jack's Place and we were all happy kids talking about something. We never fail to get excited over that.....!

Collected my phone, didn't get to muffin mixture because I was too lazy to get to Giant, went home and supposingly siesta time but I slept for hours. Can't go to sleep and I gotta see a dermatologist tomorrow morning say, 8.30 a.m. and k I'll try to go get some sleep now. So, sugar dreams all!

So.....I went out with mom and walked around town. Got a new addition to my basketful of hair accessories and I'm haaaaappppy because it's so pwetty and it blings ;) Shiz does that sound bimbotic? I hope not because I am not one, to begin with. I hope this last week of holidays would be an eventful one catching up with my friends and having fun.

Have no idea why am I feeling so tired and bloated today :(

On a sidenote my facebook's news feeds are all flooded with VS graduation photos (haha Asyraf where is yours?). Photos aplenty and a gazillion of tags. And they get to don on their formal wear to collect their graduation certificate and booklets, sumptuous dinner, big tables, air conditioned hall.... Let's just hope that the prime project in st hilda's goes well and I can happily go back and play volleyball in the air conditioned sports hall ha ha ha.

Mom just called me to go over to the yard and told me that my 'Surfer' singlet turned from white to pink. Oh no :'( Hope that bleaching works!! I like that quite a lot!

Seriously what's with taxi drivers these days? Recently there have been an increase in the number of taxi drivers, if you have noticed because I'm one late bird so I cab to my destination if I'm late. New taxi drivers in fact so they do not really know they way to where I want to go because they live somewhere in the North/South/West. Just that time I took a cab from Vivo and wanted to go home. I was already all drained out by the sun and everything else and just then he had to ask "Excuse me do you know the way there?" and I went wth it's not like I'm in the East whereby I still can give you directions and I'm rushing for time.

Just recently on Mel's birthday I told the cabby I wanted to go to two places. First to pick up my friends and then off to Siglap Centre and then the cabby claimed that he "didn't know how to get to two places" when I have made it very clear first off to pick up my friends and Tampines and then off to another place.

Yesterday Venus and I were at Woodlands Interchange and hopped into a cab and I told the cabby, "American School" and he didn't know how to get there either! So he went roaming aimlessly while we were freaking rushing for time. We the officials should never be late and I was angry.

Just today again I was late for church. Super late and then I washed up changed up in less than FIVE minutes (fast or what? I think I prepare faster than a guy) and rushed down to take a cab and this time another cabby said "I have no idea how to get to Tampines Interchange" and I was :@

Venus forgot to bring her phone so when I reached the MRT she went home and we were both too lazy to get to church already because we were late. Can't stop getting angry over taxi drivers and didn't go to church today so that explains my foul mood. I think I want to take a nap now before having lunch and then maybe off to town with Mom...!

Rightttttt I reached home not long ago and am feeeling really exhausted because i) I didn't have enough sleep, ii) rushed to American School and got lost in the cab, iii) rushed back home, iv) rush to Orchard to meet Darren Jackie Simon and Jasmin and bumped into Gladys Baohui Junqiang Joel Nat. Was like.....somewhat like a mini gathering. It's past midnight already and yesterday was October the Tenth. Remember how we dressed up smartly wearing our school uniforms for the last time (excluding those days we had to wear our uniforms for the big O's) collecting our Graduation Booklet on stage on last year's Graduation Day....? Time flies reaaaallllly doncha think so! It's kinda like an achievement for me on that day because I thought I have come quite far! So this year, since Mom can't make it for my brother's Graduation Ceremony, I will take over Mom's place and go baaaack to school with Dad!

Today I put my playlist on shuffle mode and it keeps playing Good Girls Go Bad featuring Leighton Meester a.k.a Blair Waldorf xoxo and that song is kinda stuck in my head.

Sighhhhh SHOULD I TAKE THE REFEREE COURSE????? Am finding people to take with me but it seems like they cannot stand all that pressure and stress standing on that referee's stand. Well c'mon it's good easy and clean way to earn moneyyyy but nobody's with me except for my referee friends ugh ugh ugh.

Today

Pictures from the past.

Exactly one year ago (10th October 2008)

I am nerd.

Who's the winner!!

Someone said, Vietnam Bride. HA HA HA.

Look at this picture and tell me what do you notice?

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Eyebaaaaags, terribly sunken in eyebags. All these while my friends and family members have been complaining that my biological clock is screwed and that I do not have adequate sleep because lately I've been stoning more than before. So today.....I was supposed to spend some me-time by myself and do the things I've been wanting to do and that includes painting my nails nude. Opened up and saw the pictures sent to me in my received folder earlier this morning and went 'O shitttt' because I look so terrible, with eyebags. I told myself Thee Shall Go Get More Sleep so hence I went back to sleep all the way until 4 p.m. so my day is kinda wasted. But I like it like that not because it's wasted but finally I do get some quality rest.

My friend called me and got me a slot to do scoring at the American School again tomorrow thank God for friends like that and thank you Jingjie!!! ^^

Speaking of which I'm quite upset when my brother came back from school and broke the news to me... It's not gonna be very nice to announce it here so I am going to keep it between me myself and I. And probably between the few closer friends. 'But..........why? Why of all people, him?! He is such a nice guy is God blind or something.....?'

Sigh so wasted but after some thought, maybe God has a plan to make him someone with a stronger, admirable character.

Now I just got a call from the Sony Ericsson shop to inform me that my phone is ready for collection but am too lazy to make a trip down to Simei so I'm gonna have to live with the LG touchscreen phone for the next few days... :( and now that my phone's messages and memory are all wiped out I don't really know what to do with my phone anymore.

Dad told me that November the Fifteenth is going to be a crazily packed day. Cousin's wedding tea ceremony in the morning, God Grandma's grand Eightieth in the afternoon and back to cousin's wedding in the evening. Hmmm should I wear a kebaya on my God Grandma's eightieth since she's a Peranakan just like Deanna's granny? Ha ha. Paiseh leh...

You know, right now I'm feeling very lost. It's health versus passion and it's not the first time I facing this. Every time when I have reached a decision to put health first, it's either a part of me feels really terribly upset and empty or someone pops up randomly and gives me a pep talk thinking that I deserve to continue to play vb and promise to give me a position in the twelve.

You know me. Twelve isn't enough. Call it greedy or whatever it is but this is, perfectionism. And I get pretty upset if I do not get what I want.

But what if, I lose touch of everything and I can't play well for both indoors and outdoors? Why are all these small little intricate things so disturbing. I tell you, even when it's bedtime at 4 a.m. I'm still crazily disturbed over all these things.

Oh sigh never mind. Why am I typing all these out when nobody even understands what I'm going through?

Can you actually believe I've been harping over this issue for like.....months?! And getting upset over something that might not be of use in the future?! Waaake up time to wake up. September has come to an end already.

Today I met Gladys again and we've met only twice this holiday! Time really flies. All we did was having lunch, eyebrow trimming at m.a.c., browsing magazines at the book store, got a top from zara banana, neoprints, accessories shopping at diva and mango dessert at shokudo.

I don't eat a lot these days but surely I spent a bomb on good food. Good food. Good for the Souls.